12/9/03

I didn’t want to come to work today, for a lot of reasons, I’m really tired, I feel like I’m getting a cold, I have no work, and thanks to my hubbys overly-social group I’ll be eating alone at my desk for the second day in a row. I hate the holidays. His group does a ton of stuff. They have their big department party, they go out to lunch as a group, they have a party after work at someone’s house and they have a total hissy if you don’t go to the companywide party. The big department party was yesterday so I sat at my desk for lunch instead of having lunch with my husband as normal. Today hubby has to go to lunch with his group so I will again, be sitting at my desk alone for lunch. It wouldn’t bother me that much except, he hates his group, he doesn’t want to go to lunch with them, he wants to go to lunch with me! *pouts* That’s the part that makes this whole thing suck, if he actually enjoyed himself at these things I wouldn’t really care, I’d know he was having fun and I’d be willing to happily sacrifice my lunch with him. But he ends up being more miserable than me so that sucks. Luckily we got out of the companywide party by taking that week off. The party is the same night Return of the King is coming out and sorry, but we’ve planned to go see that the day it comes out since the last movie was released. Plus we don’t even fucking celebrate christmas, we don’t want to go to the damned company party to stick our lips on the asses of the higher ups. Sorry, not interested. I don’t celebrate Christmas, I don’t kiss ass, I don’t like half the people in the company, so therefore I’ve no need to go to a holiday party.

I don’t know if anyone did a double take when I said I don’t celebrate Christmas? As an adult athiest there’s really nothing “special” about christmas for me. If we had children we’d do a little more by putting up a small tree and exchanging gifts on the solstice. Hubby and I don’t exchange gifts among ourselves, we exchange gifts with one another throughout the year for no other reason other than we saw something the other would just love. So we don’t run out and buy stuff just for holidays. The only thing we recognize is the solstice, the lengthening of days, I’ll put the window candles up that night and that’s it for our holiday celebrations. Of course, we do still attend our family gathering on Christmas since the family would have a total cow if we didn’t, but really, this time of year is just another time of year for us as it is for many. A lot of people can’t fathom not celebrating Christmas but really it’s not that big of a deal. It’s only a big deal when someone else makes a big deal out of it. Like my sister in law who just cannot understand why we’re not interested in getting a Christmas tree. *shrugs* Even if we did celebrate Christmas would putting up a Christmas tree in a house with 8 cats be a wise decision? I think not.

I wrote an entry last night about a bug phobia of mine. I had a horrible night last night. I ended up marking the entry private because I decided it was just too personal. I didn’t get a damn thing done last night because there was a stink bug in literally almost every room in the house. They started showing up just after hubby left for class. I ended up trapped in the bathroom for nearly 3 hours while hubby was at school. I can’t kill the bugs myself because I’m too terrified of them to do so, as silly as that sounds. Anyone who doesn’t understand what it means to be phobic would just laugh and make fun so that’s why I removed the entry.

Anyway, I’m exhausted and I’m not feeling all that great so I’m going to close here and go back to the reading I was doing yesterday.