10/13/03

Yeah, I think I have a cold *pout*. This WOULD happen four days before our trip. Hopefully it’ll pass. I booked one more hotel room this morning. In Knoxville, TN, for the way back. Now all we need is one more in PA and we’ll be done. I still don’t know if we’re bringing my step-sisters cat back with us or not. I guess I’ll know when we get there. It doesn’t really matter, it just affects how much stuff I can fit in the car on the way back. I’ve traveled from OK to CT with a cat before, it wasn’t too bad, but it was my cat I was traveling with so that helps. Casper actually survived the trip pretty well. He was a little scared but all in all he did very well. Despite looking like a wimp he’s a pretty tough little cat.

I finished typing up the instructions for our neighbors this morning. I’ve got to get hubby to proof them for me.

The weather is looking warmer than I’d like for Tulsa. Our car still has no A/C. That and I’ve gotten use to enjoying my long-sleeved clothing again!! Now it’s going to be back to short sleeves and roasting in the car with no A/C. Oh boy!!

I do all the driving once we get to Oklahoma. Last time though I managed to get myself turned around. Up until I moved to CT I had never not lived in Tulsa, so getting turned around and realizing I was going South when I was supposed to be going North was quite frustrating. Have I ever mentioned I have absolutely no direction sense? My parents worried about me when they turned me loose in my car for the first time. In addition to not having any direction sense I showed no interest in learning my way around. Tulsa is extremely well organized though so it’s virtually impossible to actually get lost there. Only time I ever got lost was in Owasso, and that was because I wasn’t supposed to have ended up in Owasso. 🙂 I’ve lived in CT for four years though and I still don’t really know my way around despite trying to learn. I just really suck at it. I can get to a few places and home, anything around the highway is doable. I have the hardest time with country roads. Getting to the Tolland grocery store even though I live in Tolland is still something I haven’t mastered, too many twisty roads. I’m used to straight, well organized roads. *shrug* I was getting better at getting there but last time I tried something happened that pretty much put me back to square one. I haven’t tried again since. I haven’t really even driven since. It’s amazing how you can start getting over something and feeling better and then something happens to send you all the way back to square one. It’s like all that work is lost, makes it feel like a huge waste of time. I guess when you fall off your bicycle you’re supposed to get right back on, but when I fall off my bicycle I kick the shit out of it a few times and sell it at the next tag sale. I give up too easily. It’s easier to give up than it is to fix something like this. *sigh* One thing I wanted to do was be able to help hubby with the driving on the way to Oklahoma. I don’t think it’s going to happen..AGAIN. I tried last time, I really did. I ended up on this really bad toll bridge though, driving over bridges makes me nervous and this one happened to be huge, busy and over a huge river, I had a panic attack. That was just so not fun. I really miss the me that would just hop in the car and go, drive to various camping grounds, drive out of town on a whim. I’ve got to learn to just not think, quit worrying about what “might” happen. I never used to think about what might happen, and if I did I brushed it aside. *knocks on head* I know that person is still in there somewhere, she’s just not answering the door. *looks around and laughs* I’m a dork, but the good thing is, I’m a dork that gets to go home in ten minutes.

until tomorrow (or later if I get bored).

~B~

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