06/23/03 Part One

Well, I’m at work but I don’t have shit to do so I’m not going to complain. Well, actually, maybe I will because it kind of sucks to be here with nothing to do. It gets REALLY boring. My boss and the other person in my group are out this week. I know my co-worker is on vacation but I’m not sure about my boss, I think this week might be vacation for her too.

We mostly stayed home this weekend. We try to steer clear of densly populated areas on weekends. Malls, shopping centers, grocery stores, anywhere people go for recreation, anything. Anywhere people like to go is somewhere I don’t want to be. Why? Because Connecticut sucks and people are rude. I always come out of it hating the world and hating people. The assholes outweigh the nice people by far. It’s getting worse everywhere too, I was shocked last time I went to to Tulsa. Traffic in Tulsa has gotten amazing horrid. It was taking me twice as long as it took me four years ago to get from place to place. It doesn’t help that Oklahoma’s roads haven’t really been updated much since the 60’s. They’re really behind and are having a hard time dealing with the traffic problems. It amazes me that people can’t see our population problem in this world. I know some people do, but not enough.

I’m thinking about going vegetarian again. Well, mostly vegetarian. If meat is the only thing on the table at someone’s house I’d always eat a little of it to avoid making them feel bad or something. I don’t like making people go out of their way for me. I gave up when I moved to CT, not only is hubby’s family big on meat but I had a hard time making food hubby will eat that doesn’t have meat in it. I was thinking though that I could make things like taco’s and hamburger helper and stuff with crumbled boca patties and things like that. Plus, I make a mean spinach lasagna. I dunno if pasta e fagioli would taste good with boca but hey, we can try it, right? I felt better when I didn’t eat meat, especially red meat. I don’t even like red meat all that much, I can eat things like hamburgers and hamburger helper when I’m starving but once I start getting a little full and slow down and think about what I’m eating I start gagging on it. Were it just me I’d make hamburger helpers without adding any meat. 🙂 They look tasty by themselves. Chicken is about the only meat I actually like, but only if it’s boneless. It’d be good for me to get more veggies, fruits and fibers into my diet, might help with my blood pressure and I might lose some weight.

Hopefully the rain has passed for now. We’re hoping to get some yard work done this year. We don’t really have the money for indoor projects although there are two indoor projects we’re doing that are free, we just haven’t gotten around to them. For indoor projects hubbys dad is giving us some wood that we’re going to use to make our kitchen and downstairs bathroom floor wood. I fucking hate linoleum. There’s two kinds of floors that I like, stone or wood. I don’t like to mop all the fucking time and our linoleum looks like shit because of it. Not to mention if you accidently tear linoluem OOPS!! It’s all over. Wood can be sanded and refinished. Stone just rocks socks but the wood is free so we’re going with that. We also have to sand and refinish the rest of the wood floors in the house but uh, we’ve yet to figure out a gameplan for that one. Anyway, outdoor projects. Hubby is clearing brush this year and planting tree’s. You see, our yard has NO privacy. It’s annoying because people drive by and gawk at you, the stupid one’s yell out the windows or honk their fucking car horns. It gets really old to get hollered and honked at every time you’re outside trying to enjoy yourself. I’d taken to giving everyone the finger until I flipped off someone we knew once. Oops. 🙂 So yeah, we’re going to head out into the woods and dig up small pine tree’s and transplant them to the front of the yard. I dunno if hubby plans to put them in front of the rocks or behind the rocks but they’re going somewhere up near the road. He’s already started clearing overgrowth around the barn and is planning to clear some out by the back of the yard too so you can actually see the orchard. There’s a nice little orchard back there. Hubby also has to cut the raspberry bushes out of the blueberry bushes. They’ve grown all up in there and are trying to choke out the blueberry bushes. If hubby gets those out of there we can cover the blueberry bushes with netting to keep out the birds and we’ll have some nice blueberries for blueberry muffins and pancakes. I want to get our boat patched too, there’s a boat down by the pond and it’d be fun to go for a float in it. I love our house, and our land. We’ve just got so much neat stuff, we’re soooo lucky, now all we need is some privacy to it all and we’ll be golden.

I’ve been talking to my step-sister. I just realized she’s my step-sister the other day when hubby mentioned it. She’s the daughter of my dads new wife. We haven’t met in person yet though. She met her boyfriend on the internet!! Mind you, this has completely weirded my dad out. She met the guy on the internet, just like I met my hubby and his name is the same as my hubby’s name only spelled differently. And to top it all off, he’s from New England, Maine to be exact. 🙂 She’s 18, graduated from high school and wants to move to Maine with him. He’s been in Oklahoma with her for the past year or so. I’ve been talking back and forth with her while she tells her parents all this. I was really worried for her since she really thought her parents weren’t going to be supportive of her decision. She finally told all of them with the help of my dad and they’re all upset but willing to help her out. That’s the best way to be, yes, your child is moving a long way away from you BUT you can still have a good relationship even from a long way away. The best thing you can do is be supportive of the child you’ve raised and help, not hinder. If she’s making a mistake she’ll come back eventually, if she’s making the right choice, good for her. I think, judging from what I’ve heard from her and my dad that she’s making the right choice for herself. She’s miserable in Oklahoma and not on the best terms with her mom. I’m sure they love each other but the best thing for a mother and daughter is some time apart. Most mother-daughter relationships seem to get better when the mom quits being a mom, at least to some extent, and starts being a friend. It’s a tough road she’s heading down, but I survived it and I think she will too. I’m really happy for her and I guess we’ll have one more person to visit when we go to Maine. Needless to say I’m JEALOUS. There’s two places I want to live and she’ll be living in one of them. I’d like to live in either Maine or Canada. I’m leaning more towards Canada with a summer house in Maine. *sigh* Hopefully my future holds something like that, guess I’ll just have to keep waiting to find out.

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