03/10/2013

I ended up in the back of a cop car tonight.

….Okay, so its not like that. I’m too damn boring, but I really did sit in the back of a cop car tonight. My stupid car broke down in the middle of the road. I didn’t even make it ten minutes away from babysitting. All I wanted to do was come home and crawl into bed. I was tired and cold. My car had other plans for me though. It just figured it would die out on me. Leave me stranded, alone, cold, annoyed…It was good timing on the cops part. I was only sitting there in my car for about 5 minutes when he pulled up behind me. Of course for thse five minuted I felt like an ass while cars had to pull around me just to give me a stare. Or maybe they weren’t staring, it was dark..but they probably were…its the way things are..Anyway, I told the cop what was going on, and he was really helpful, he called a tow truck for me, (not that I couldn’t do that myself, but he offered and said he could call someone who would come pretty quick) and then asked if I wanted to sit in his car while we waited for the tow truck because it was cold. Nice guy…and pretty nice looking also! So thats how I ended up in the back of a cop car tonight. Not really an exciting story. Then when the tow truck came, I got to ride home in a tow truck, and the tow truck guy was nice looking too. Really, it could have been worse. Well, it could have been better, I felt like a dipshit because I looked like a disheveled mess.

Needless to say. I got home later than expected….and I’m tired. I am also a little pissed off. I’m not really sure whats wrong with the car. I just put oil in it on Friday….although, I had to add oil to it about two weeks ago as well. I figured I just needed ann oil change but perhaps theres more going on. I have no idea. I know nothing about cars. I try to learn and understand, but the information goes in one ear and out the other.

Other than that thrilling bit of my life…I don’t have a lot going on. Like I said, I’m boring. My week wasn’t too bad. I had a pretty bad week last week. I don’t know why. It just was. I still have been stuggling a lot with body image. I just….I don’t know. Its my main focus. I hate it. I say I don’t have a whole lot going on because I have one thing going on, and thats body image. Pathetic.

I brought up my scale issues with counselor this Friday. I’m glad she didn’t suggest I get rid of it. It showed that she had more of an understanding than previous counselors. she suggested I try just moving it to a different spot in the bathroom for now. Thats it. Doable! I havn’t tried the waiting for ten minutes to step on the scale for the last few days. Its hard to remember that step….or maybe its because I was being really inpatient.

-from 3/9/13