blind date

ahh, the internets. im too lazy to leave my house in order to meet people. i gave up on CL, but i tried an actual dating site, and i met someone. already. and we had our first date tonight. he’s cute, i like him. a bit of a pretentious playa, but so am i. im just better at hiding it. the only reason he’s talking to me is bc he probably wants to hook up. but really, thats all im looking for. i just cant make it seem that way. im pretty sure he might have a girlfriend. but i dont exactly care. he tried to kiss me, and at first i wouldnt let him, but then i gave in, mainly bc if he was a bad kisser, i would just quit now. but he wasnt a bad kisser, at all. and i think i would like to sleep with him. im pretty sure he probably only has an average sized cock, but thats not always a bad thing. im a petite little thing, so big dicks are sometimes a turn off.

altho, after he kissed me, i had to act real shy and say, "i NEVER kiss on the first date…" an absolute lie. but i didnt want to come off like some whore, you know? also, dont want him to think he can fuck me on the 2nd date. we agreed that we would like to see each other again. not sure when thats going to happen. but hes fun and i like him, and i was looking for someone to use for sex, so this just might work. i’ll make him fall hopelessly in love/lust with me, and then i will destroy him. i havent done that in a while, and i have to make sure im not losing my touch.

i think im going to start my period soon, bc i am cramping like a mug.

and im incredibly sexually frustrated. he kissed me. a lot. and i liked it. far more than i thought i would. there is a whole lot i havent told him about me. i think im going to see how long i can keep these secrets.

i told b i think im going to create a comic book about this. i’ll keep you updated.

QUESTION:  how long should i make him wait for sex? i was thinking maybe a month. or longer?