b-o-r-e-d

im so bored. my schedule is that  i work for a week and a half straight, and then have four day weekends. usually i go out of town on my weekends. this is the first time i havent in like 2 and a half months. i dont know what to do with myself. i did go to work for 4 hours today [even tho i was supposed to be off] with one main purpose in mind: to work a ser. so tell me why k has me do everything but…? ju said he had his ideas of why, and just to keep a list.  so i guess i will.

other news: i really need to get laid.  when mch broke up with me in aug, i started sort-of-but-not-dating srg in sept. for two reasons: 1. i wanted sex/attention 2. he’s a nice guy and i figured "y Not?" it wasnt supposed to be anything serious. for me it never was. i think he started getting the idea it was going somewhere.

[backstory= srg is an x from some time ago. it didnt work out and i dumped him bc he wanted to get married and got kinda controlling]

so anyway…. i was seeing srg for about a month and a half. maybe even two months. and im done with him now. he’s sweet, but not what im looking for. he wanted a long term commitment sort of deal. i told him that wasnt going to happen. ive stopped spending time with him. e wanted to come visit me last weekend. i said no bc i had to work and i was sick. he wanted me to visit him this weekend. i said no, and that md forbade to leave til i cleaned up my mess.earlier in the week,  he got all fussy when i declined his invitation, and at the time, i was not aware that he had requested off all weekend in order to be able to see me. very sweet, but i’m still not going.

altho now, im very very bored and thought about inviting him up. but md is sick and i know she probably doesnt want visitors right now. plus, i have a ton of things to keep me occupied. im just not in the mood. i want to go out and have fun. my life consists of going to work and sleeping. [and OD, of course] [lol] but yeah, so im off for the rest of today and sat and sun. im not on call or anything.

i slept most yesterday. 

i think im going to eat something.