Sneaky Smirks

So I’ve had this shit eating smirk on my face all day… I actually went out to Nate’s house last night. Got there around 8:00ish. The drive was actually quite simple and I parked behind his truck in the drive way and texted him when I got there. I was sitting and waiting for his response, I knew he was in the shower. He called and said he would meet me outside. So I grabbed my back of booze and my DVD portfolio and walked up to him. "Moving in." I said with all my luggage.

This was nerve racking. I’m still a little shy around the cute guys and I fumbled over my words and mumbled a lot. I felt like a schmuck. So we headed inside and I am greeted by two month old kittens. I melt. I knew he had 6 kittens. They were my reasoning for being able to go to his house. I told D that my brother and his girl wanted a kitten for my niece. This was true… but they got one for her a week ago. Becky, however, also wanted a kitten and I told her I would take pictures of them for her.

We head into the living room and sit with a good size space between us on the couch. Tv is on and kittens are crawling every where. I play with them and we chat a little for about an hour. Then he asks what movies I had in my binder, so i had it to him and he flips through. We decided we wanted to watch that Pacino/DeNiro flick ‘A Righteous Kill’. So we start watching it, but we’re still talking, and around chapter 8 the movie freezes. I apologize, but am pissed at the same time cause I wanted to see the movie. He says that it’s probably his DVD player. So he takes the movie out and puts in ‘Role Models’, one of his burned movies.

So we’re laughing and having a good time. I think it was during this movie where we moved a little closer and he eventually had his arm on my leg, which was crooked up under my other leg. When this movie is all done, he looks at me and says, ‘My movie played all the way though.’ and I playfully hit him and laughed. He continued with, ‘I was going to say that earlier but I didn’t want to jinx it.’

It’s around midnight now and we are just drinking and going outside to smoke butts and then we ended up watching ‘Zack and Miri make a porno.’ I had originally put it on the table so he could borrow it, but I totally didn’t mind watching it again.

So we’re watching the movie and Nate’s kind of leaning against me and I put my arm around him. He says, "I feel like a chick." And when I asked why he said, "Cause I think we’re supposed to be reversed." And I laughed a little and told him I liked it. So we’re just watching the movie like this and once and a while he brushes my hair out of my face… and I feel my cheeks flush and get hot. Again, why is it some strange guy can do this and not my boyfriend?

So at one point he puts his hand on my cheek and starts making out with me… and I fall into it. I was waiting for it and I welcomed it. We made out on and off for the rest of Zack and Miri… 3 am or so rolls around and Nate tosses ‘Black Hawk Down’ into the DVD player. We watch some of it but mainly kiss and he is all over me. Then at one point we’re both kind of just laying on the couch and I start to doze off… "Are you sleeping?" and I snap awake and say, "no." and he says, ‘yeah you were… C’mon. Let’s go to bed." And I said I was okay and we stayed on the couch for about another half an hour.

Eventually he gets up and says, "we don’t have to do anything but lets go lay in bed and make out until we fall asleep." And I almost wanted to cry at this purely lovely thought and soon agreed.

So I crawled into bed, jeans hoodie and all. I think I’ve mentioned before that I ALWAYS have a hooded sweatshirt on… it’s kind of like a trademark. He takes off his jeans and crawls into bed and says, ‘you aren’t seriously going to wear that sweatshirt are you?’ and I said, ‘yup’ and we started making out.

He is touching me EVERYWHERE and I’m a pint of gin deep and still totally uncomfortable with my body. He just goes, "babe, I’ve been touching you all night… I wouldn’t be doing it if I didn’t like you how you were. Might as well take the hoodie off." Which I did. Which led to more kissing and groping. Which led to losing the bra. More kissing and groping. And after a gallant effort of trying to refuse sex… I gave in… And it didn’t last that long but… holy shit. I wont go into the nitty gritty to save your poor eyes but… man… I was reeling all day.

It was about 6:30 AM when we FELL ASLEEP. But I had never been here before and I’m in bed with this guy I hardly know, so I sleep uneasily. Wake up at 8:15 to the kittens nursing on the floor next to me.I laid in bed for about half an hour and then just got up and started cleaning. I did all of the dishes and then Jenn called me. I talked to her for over an hour before Nate woke up.

He immediately came up behind me and put his arms around me and kissed the back of my head. Wasn’t expecting that… he did it a few more times before I left too. I left just before noon and got home around 12:45…

And I’ve had this sneaky content smirk on my face all day… I came home and took a shower and then was sitting on the couch drinking a glass of water and D comes home. it’s about 2:00… he just says, ‘Oh, what time did you get back?’ and I said around 12:30… that was the end of the convo, he didn’t really care.

I then left to get my car inspected and ran up to John and Jenn’s house cause she had been begging me to. I only stayed till like 6 though because I was so tired. Then I came home and thought about eating, but realized I wasn’t really hungry and fell asleep on the couch instead.

I woke up around 11:15 and sent Nate a text that said, ‘For what it’s worth I had an awesome time and have had this shit eating smirk on my face all day…" And we texted back and forth. I asked if he wanted to come out and go to Becky’s party tomorrow (well… er… Saturday night) and he said he had band practice. But he told me to ‘come over at night if I wanted….’ that’s gotta be good news, right?! I told him that I probably wouldn’t cause of Becky’s party… but how about Sunday? And he told me to call him Sunday morning. *sigh* this is oh so lovely… I wonder how long till D says something? cause when I have a thing for someone, I’m adamant about them…

Unfortunately, I’m just going to lie and say he has a girlfriend… named Sarah. Guess who my inspiration is?

 

Well I’ve gone and rambled on again… I’m sure none of you care about any of the shit I’ve been talking about lately… but I want to catalog it… that way, when I’m miserable, I can go back and read these entries and smile. Good stuff happens sometimes I guess.

Oh, funny part about the Nate adventure. We were sitting there and he got a text from Colin. It was a naked chick on a boat. So I texted Colin and said, ‘Where’s my naked chick on a boat?’ and he goes, ‘How did you know I just sent a text?’ and I said, ‘I’m that good… I’m also watching you.’ and I told Nate and he said, ‘Great, you probably just freaked him the fuck out. he’s the most paranoid person I know.’

I wonder if this will cause a rift? I wasn’t going for that… just cause I’ll be all over Nate now at the bar doesn’t mean I still don’t want to see Colin.

 

M

an, I being a skank again and I haven’t even lost any weight yet…

Take care, ODer’s… Especially Sarah, Lulu, The Mighty, Ryan, and Sacha… even though you aren’t around anymore you ghostly bastard, I still think about you and miss you.

 

_DuSt_