Ponderings

So i’m doing the same thing that I always do: leaching onto the thought of something that is definitely not to be nor ever was anything. I can’t get that Nate guy out of my head. Can you blame me? Most of you know how D is (and nothing i say about him is exaggerated at all…).

I was supposed to go and hang out with Nate on Sunday… he was going to get a hold of me after he went to lunch with his family. So I wait and I wait… and I make myself pretty. 2:00 rolls around. Nothing. I don’t want to be annoying, but here i am sitting around waiting for this guy to text or call me. So at 2:45 I just sent a text that said ‘Are we still on for today?’

Two more hours pass before i get a response. "Sorry sorry sorry, i’ve been in Boston all moring. My cousin had a kid yesterday and the baby has birth defects so they don’t know if it has long…"

Im sure this isn’t a lie. We may be a bunch of crude electricians, but i don’t think he’s heartless enough to make up something like that.

So I said, "Don’t worry about it. I’m so sorry, that’s really sad news. Get ahold of me sometime during the week if you want…"
"I get out tomorrow at 5"
*Smiles on my end* "Mondays are my long days, i’ll have to see what time i get out… You have off on Friday?"
"Yup"
"Maybe thursday night then? Or friday?"
"Sounds good"
Then a little bit later i sent: "Oh and be careful driving home."
"I rode out with my mom. Thank you though :)"

And then at like 7:00, partially being considerate and partially anxious, i sent "Oh, im sorry, if you’re really upset about everything with your cousin i can come and chill tomorrow if you want." And i haven’t heard back from him since then.

Or maybe im wrong. Maybe there is something different about Nate. I don’t go nuts over Colin like this… He is married though. Im not trying to be a home wrecker. Besides, they’re the ones that come onto me. I just don’t say no.

My own boyfriend hasn’t even inspired me to lose weight. Even in thoughts that he might like me better.

No, Vile… you’re doing that same thing you always do. At least I wont be fooled this time. I’ll just enjoy the ride…