Cinderella

There’s been a lot of stuff going on, but I guess I don’t really have a lot to show for it.

I was really gung-ho this weekend about going to look at this house in Springfield. I just can’t afford it by myself. Close. Very close. But I don’t really have much money saved up and I know you’re supposed to have a ‘nest egg’ of money… especially in the electrical field. Like six months worth in case you get laid off. So i talked to my buddy Griff last night (from school) and explained to him that I get really excited about outlandish ideas and then put all of my energy into the idea, trying to make it real. I did this with school, with something I bought for Christmas, when it came down to fighting to return that christmas present, steaming wallpaper off Becky’s bedroom in her new house, buying the Liberty (hey, maybe I’ll have it this week?), the house in Springfield,… Sarah. Well, I’m still gung-ho about her.

Wish I could be gung-ho on a diet. This week! stupid soup diet.

So I think I’ve mentioned Matt from school. The guy that always ends up staying and chatting the latest at the bar with me. One night while he and I were finishing up our drinks, Becky and I’s friend Danielle showed up at Silks. Totally random. Anywho, the next time that I talked to both of them, they each said they thought the other was cute. I’m usually really good at playing matchmaker for other people, not so much myself. Obviously. So last Friday, Matt was coming out to one of our famous ski resorts we have in our area, Jimney Peak, and I told him to call me when he was all done and maybe the three of us could get together and have a drink or something. He ended up having to go home because his buddy that he was with had a date or something that night. (Matt lives in Southhampton… which is not as far as my union hall. Maybe 45 minutes?) So I called him and Danielle and also my buddy Griff who had been texting me all day to see if we could all get together. I told Griff and Matt to figure out where to go because Danielle and I weren’t familiar with the area at all. Matt was tired from snowboarding, so he didn’t want to drive. Griff suggested going to where he lives: Belchertown. Luckily, Southampton is exit 3 on the pike and Belchertown is exit 7. Or a hop on 202. So Danielled met me at my house at 7:30. Then we went and picked up Matt and then headed to Belchertown.

It was funny, Griff told me to call him because he said he knew that we would get lost (it’s a big hick town in the middle of the state. So I called him and he told me I missed a turn not far back. So I made my way back onto the road I was supposed to be on and he was like, ‘Okay you should see this. Now this. And then this bank." and I was within 20 feet of each thing, which was hysterical that he could call it like that. Then he said, "and now follow my truck that just pulled out in front of you." Which made me die laughing.

So we ended up STARTING our night at 9:45 at the VFW in Belchertown. Just a small thing, with a DJ and Kareokee and cheap drinks. Exactly what I wanted. This is the first time Danielle and I have hung out to. We had a really good time and we had more in common then we thought. I finally found someone else that was in a really bad abusive relationship like myself. That was incredibly comforting.

So we stayed at the VFW till they kicked us out. Griff knew every single person there and introduced Danielle and I to all of his friends (im sure he introduced matt too, but i was drunk). Then we drove back to Griff’s house. I was ALL FOR crashing there but Matt wanted to go home. So I asked Matt if Griff could come back to the house if he wanted and he said he didn’t care. So off we went down 202 back to Southampton. At one point, Matt said ‘you realize this guy is driving all this way for you, don’t you?" and I just said, "Yeah…" and smiled to myself."

So we got back to Matt’s house and he kicked one of his roommates off the couch. He and Danielle slept in his bed and Griff and I slept on the couch. Well no one did a whole lot of sleeping. All 4 of us were up chatting with our respective bed partners until god knows what time. Me? I cheated on D again. I’m immune to this now. The next morning we just hung around Matt’s and ended up getting Chinese and then Danielle and I left at like 2:00.

D wasn’t mad. Well, actually, I’m sure he probably was he just didn’t say anything as usual.

Yesterday I rented a wallpaper steamer and was at Becky’s house for like 10 hours taking wallpaper down. I texted and talked to Griff all day. I wanted to talk about shit when I got home but I couldn’t get D to go upstairs and pass out, so i didn’t end up calling Griff. I’ll call him tonight though. I tried, i know i know, one last time to talk to D and he just didn’t say anything. He made some asshole comment about me moving home and I said, "I can’t wait to get out of here."

Im going to find out what time my mom is working till tonight to see if I can speed up the ‘going to see them wednesday to beg to live in the basement’ process.

So… that’s all I have. Well, I did kiss Colin the other night at the bar and one of the other guys was HAMMERED and being touchy feely. *sigh* I know, i’ve gone overboard like I always do. This is why attention starved is a terrible thing. I’ll calm it down, don’t worry.

I also have no fears about seeing teacher Mike on Tuesday night 🙂   He’s not the only one, so I guess it isnt a big deal anymore.

Love you all. keep your heads up and your shit together…