That sinking feeling

Is it worth it if I miss you? And in such a strange way.
Is it selfish that I want to keep you?

I know I am truculent and obstinate. And I realize I need more patience with you but I feel like you could be more understanding of how I am.

I never expected all of you, all the time. I wanted a simple recognition, nothing more nothing less.

I’m just tired of being the someone that can be called on if only out of last resort and nothing more. If I’m worth only that then I am expendable and I don’t deserve that.

I wasn’t about to invest myself into you if you didn’t really give a damn to invest much into me.

But what I really want to say is that I am sorry if I hurt you, If it even meant enough to sting.

I know what I said but I regret it almost instantly and I’ve been thinking of you ever since.

Close the door
Not all the way
We don’t understand
We don’t understand
So don’t you wanna remind me
I don’t know a thing
And some of us remember
And some run out of place

Can I waste all your time
Here on the sidewalk
Can I stand in your light
Just for a while
I’ve waited around and oh no you’re not around
Having a hard time watching you

You’ve got it down
Now don’t you
I wanted to understand your face
So don’t you wanna remind me
I don’t know a thing
And some of us remember
And some run out of place

Can I waste all your time
Here on the sidewalk
Can I stand in your light
Just for a while
I waited around and oh no you’re not around
Having a hard time watching you, watching you.

Call It Fate, Call It Karma Lyrics – The Strokes