I don’t know what I’m searching for..

But I know that you’re not it.

Annie,
I feel uninspired lately, detached and very high strung. I feel like we have drifted though not far apart. I know you’re moving onward in your life where as I’m still idling in mine. I worry you’ll out grow me, find my lack of change to be draining and inconsistent. I am trying my best and I miss you so. I won’t be your misery but your company if that is all you choose fit.

Henry,
I wonder if you ever miss me or regret the things you did. If you ever wish I were there when no one else is. Your lazy eyes, green as the sea and tired looking, say nothing anymore. I used to be crushed every time I saw you, now I only wonder where you are and if you’re happy where you stand from five years prior. All though even if you told me, even if you let me in again, I could never care as I once did. But I only wonder in this moment.

I’ll just leave my thoughts here.

Lovely Bad Things – I Just Want You To Go Away