A Favorite Feeling

Mogwai – How to be a Werewolf
 

It truly makes me happy to see two people so very completely in love with one another, who have gone through years of sorrow and triumph, learning and appreciating each other for all that they are and nothing more and not just together but individually as well. It gives me great hope that I won’t always be this cynical and grim and that with true effort you can have a love that lasts for a lifetime.

In this moment I am surrounded in music and emotions that makes tears swell in my eyes, I am not sad, I am not angry, I am content. All I feel, a touch of remembrance, a scent of lotion that makes a forgotten memory recollecting, I am alive in this moment. I can think clearly of all that’s worth to me and appreciate it for all that it is. I can appreciate all that I am right now, love myself for loving the actions I take, for bettering myself and that maybe all of this time I’ve been after the wrong things, trying to find a feeling among unreachable limits, trying to work around the true problem at hand by escaping it all together, but I feel more alive this morning then I did yesterday, then I did months ago, then I did eight years ago. Today I have awoken with a great appreciation in my heart and I couldn’t ask for much more then that.

I only wish a feeling lasted longer than a moment.