[Entry] I can see what lies behind your blue eyes.

I feel terrible.
          His dad is so foul to him, he doesn’t deserve it. One bit. No one deserves to be choked, or pushed around.
     Especially by their own blood.

One day I’ll take him far away from this place, so he’ll never have to speak to that devious man again if he decides not to.
                                  If I knew giving him Nykii(hamster) would cause so much panic I would have never in a million years done it.
     But now it’s not even about that. It’s about himself…
         I wish his parents could really see his emotional faults, like how I see them.
All they see is the empty surface, just a teenage boy who thinks he’s king of the world.
                          But I see so much more than that. Could it be I’m just a stupid teenage girl?

Well if so, let me be, because I see every detail in his voice. I see every twitch in his eyes, I know what every flicker means.
When someone says something to defend, or hurt him, as much as he doesn’t want the world to see it.

                                                                               I do.
Maybe he doesn’t want me to,
but I know deep down inside he likes it.
He needs to feel loved,
To feel cared about, for once in his life.
 
Maybe I’m selfless?
I care…but is it too much?
Ha! I laugh.
 

                    I can read him like the back of my hand.
                    I just feel so terrible that his dad can be
                    so terrible to him. His step-dad at  that..
                    I’ve encountered abuse.I know just how
                    badly it affects you, even if it’s not every-
                    day. Deep down it still hurts. I  wish  we
                    er- I was  18  already, so we  could  live,
                    together, because I mean we basically
                    already do. I just…I love him and I don’t
                    want him to hurt. Ever. I want to be with
                    him, right now, at this exact moment….

                                                                                            Oh how I wish I could be…
                                 I know we’ll last forever, I can feel it in my heart….my soul…….
When the heat of our lips come together it creates such an unimaginable fire.
We could light up this city with such power we have.
                                 I know we are going to be everything that we want to become.
                                                                                             Oh you will never know….

 
I’m sorry cory..
I’m so sorry.

He also has stated that he won’t be attending the military career.
Could I believe this? Does my heart tell me it’s okay to get my hopes up?
No.
Just because of his dad’s own sick way of living through him.
I’m tired of it.
It’s almost like a living demon.
He feeds off of fear and anger.
I just want him to go away……
Far away.
Cory deserves the best of the best.
Living in that terrible place just puts him down.
I wish there was something I could do.
I wish I could just
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Him.
 

I know he wouldn’t lie, but his dad would make him.
What a horrible human being.
…If that’s what you’d call someone of his kind.
Human?
Inhumane?
No.
Yes.
                                                     Screw off.<br />