Worrying is what i do best……..
- The bills are stacking up even more than before, and my husband tells me not to worry! UMm, yeah sorry dude, but that is all I do. I try so hard not to let it bother me but come on! My husbands overtime was cut right now because work is slow, that is not a good thing for us. I have still been looking for a job but right now I am just not flexible enough with the kids being home because of summer and not knowing anyone who can watch them and daycare is too expensive and we have been trying to find a second full time job for him but they look at it being a bad thing when he applies or goes through the agencies. We are frickin trying here!
- I feel like I am drowning here. I have started having panic attacks, because we are barely and I mean BARELY making it. People keep telling me "oh I know how you feel" um no you dont, yeah you struggle a bit but have people that are willing to help you out and have always been there to pull you up. We don’t have that. We went grocery shopping the other day, and my husband starts grabbing whatever he wants and I say to him "really cant you grab the cheaper stuff?" So he does and complains about it. I try remembering that he is the one that makes the money right now. He asks why I don’t get things I want…um well I would rather my kids eat. I am constantly making sacrifices for my kids and husband. He just doesn’t get it. He just says well what are you going to eat, well I know how to make a sandwich and if going hungry feeds my kids well so be it. I do not want them to worry or feel the stress of it all. Well, thats enough of my ranting for now its not like anyone is reading this anyhow………………….