Very Sad Entry RIP

Omg today has been one of the hardest days of my life. My heart just aches. Early this morning my husbands best friend passed away, from stupidity. My husbands friend and another friend came out here after going to the bar, and then wanted to do more bar hopping out here, which is fine i guess but my husband told him to stay here at our place several times but he refused not 5 mins later he was dead, drunk driving, my husband is blaming himself and I cant say or do anything to help him right now, His friend was our best man in our wedding and godfather to my son. We were all so close. I am at such a lose myself i havent ever had anyone close to me die and this is very hard.