UGH MAKes me so irritated!!

OK SO I DIDNT SLEEP WELL LAST NIGHT AGAIN, I ACTUALLY DIDNT FALL ASLEEP UNTIL LIKE 4 AND THEN I WOKE UP AGAIN, AT 530 CAUSE I THOUGHT A SPIDER WAS GONNA CRAWL ON MY FACE, I AM TERRIFIED OF FRICKEN SPIDERS, I PULLED THE COVERS OVER MY FACE AND THEN FLUNG THE BLANKETS, AND JUMPED UP MAN I WAS SO FREAKED OUT LOL THEN I REALIZED MY SON WAS IN BED WITH ME LOL THEN I FELT BAD. BOTH THE KIDS MISS THEIR DAD, HE DIDNT EVEN CALL TO SAY GOODNIGHT TO THEM ITS LIKE HE IS JUST GONE, THAT MAKES ME IRRITATED TOO, CAUSE BED TIME IS HIS THING HE GETS THEM READY AND PUTS THEM TO BED. OH YEAH SO WHY I AM REALLY IRRITATED, I FLIPPIN MESSAGED HIM TO ASK IF HE KNEW WHEN HE WAS GONNA BE HOME, AND HE STILL HASNT ANSWERED ME AND THE KIDS REALLY WANT TO SEE HIIM AND I DONT WANT TO JUST LEAVE AND NOT BE HERE WHEN HE GETS HOME. COME ON!!! NOTHING PISSES ME OFF MORE THAN BEING IGNORED!!! AND THE D-BAGS HE IS WITH ARE VERY SINGLE AND DONT GET THE CONCEPT OF FAMILY AT 30 YEARS OLD THEY ARE STILL IMMATURE, AND I KNOW THEY WERE PROBABLY GIVING HIM SHIT ABOUT IT, I KNOW CAUSE THEY HAVE BEFORE WHEN I WAS WITH THEM.