Sum Quod eris, Fui Quod Es.

        So.  The other day I was walking through my living room and a thought hit me.  It was one of those thoughts that completely BLINDSIDE you- I had no idea where it came from or why it was inside of my head but it was so monumental that it blew me away.

      I knew it was important and that I’d eventually write about it.  However, I didn’t expect it to become so obscure between then and now that I’d hardly remember what it was about. 
      Sigh.  But I’ll try to give definition to the effigy…

      I think the thought had to do with the DARKNESS.  Yes, I remember now.  I’d been skulking around when I thought, ‘I love the dark.  What would it be like if I were afraid of it?  How would my life change? 
      ‘After all, I am but another shadow.
      ‘We are but kin.
      ‘And I wouldn’t share this bond if it weren’t for the people who are in my life.’
      That was when I’d gotten that feeling… that feeling where your heart thuds to a complete, breathtaking stop and swells into your throat.  Like someone’s walking over your grave, the one that was dug several hundreds of years ago.
      ::chuckles::  That’s another story, though, another tale for another day.

      This particular tale is about EROSION, the erosion and deposit that molds a soul.

      Human nature is bred to ebb and grow, to rub on each others’ defenses and fuel their fires.  Human instinct is, at base, feral and uncouth.  –Primitive-
      How can I say this so surely?
      Because I am a reflection of those I know and those I cherish, having absorbed their energies and their negativity.

      All of you have created me.

      So am I real, being bred solely from your minds?
      Yes, if only you are willing to believe.
      For I am what you wish me to be and I am exactly what you need at exactly the right time.
      I can change with the seasons, comfortably participate in seven different cliques yet when the sun goes down I am truly invisible- truly ecstatic. 

      I have been returned to my element.

      Is it what I’ve learned that makes this possible?  Is it my knowledge?  My wisdom?  Or is it inherent, instinctive talent?

      I suppose.  But ultimately it is YOU who I should give thanks to… 

      YOU who is the source of my biggest pain and biggest boon.

      Well.
      Are you proud of me?
      Better yet, am I proud of who I am?  Of WHAT I am?

      Meh, indeed, but at the worst of times I merely think, ‘Time reveals all things.  Even the shadows.’

      Peace and health.

| INMATE |

Wearing::  Dark gray/Maroon basketball pants and light gray wife beater.
Last ate::  Too many kidney beans for my digestive system to handle and a sandwich.
Feeling::  Controversial… too early to tell.