Greetings from Colorado.

WOW It’s been so long OD has changed faces on me!  YOW!

So I’m in Denver for another So You Think You Can Dance audition.  I didn’t make the first cut for this one and that’s fine by me.  I’m here for a bit of a vacation now, which is RIDICULOUSLY needed. 
Was a little disheartened while I was standing in line… was in the middle of a bunch of snooty girls.  Once inside the Denver Convention Center I migrated into some hip hop cliques.  I learned a lot.  I love SYTYCD because some of the talent is so street RAW.  You’ve got guys auditioning that have grown up on the streets learning true hip hop.  I teach myself this artform, so this raw talent REALLY inspires me.  especially when I receive compliments from others I find to look up to.
I auditioned with 8 guys and 1 other girl, all of us hip hoppers.  The other girl SUCKED ASS and had no business being on the show so I had to hold it down with the guys (this always happens.  Me, the little white girl, is always hanging out with the big black guys.  Funny story about that today, actually, LOL.)  Anyway, guess who the ONE person is that the judges let into the second round: THE CHICK WHO COULDN’T DANCE.
ALL of the guys I auditioned with (and myself) brought something to the table.  ALL of the guys I auditioned with (and myself) were pissed as HELL because they gave one of the coveted spots to this bullshit chick.
ANYWAY.  GRRRRRRRR.

My boy is everything to me.  We are not perfect… our lives are a mess right now but every time I see him it’s like he radiates light for me.  Being away from him now in Denver is killing me.  So he’s definitely changing my life and I can only pray that dance stays on top. 

Dance… I’ve had opportunities to teach as a master hip hop teacher.  The first one is mid-April, the next is a weeklong intensive in the summer.
I’m staying with Starbucks as long as I can, what with the economy the way it is.  The more income I have coming in to help support myself and Kells when we move out the better!  My hours were cut anyway, so I’m only putting in 15-20 hrs vs. 20-25.  It’s not THAT bad.  *CoughCough*

I’m gaining my weight back but my goal is just to try to kick my eating disorder.  It’s a rough, rough road.  🙁

My home life is an absolute fucking disaster.  I abhor every moment I spend at my house.  My parents yell at each other, yell at me, yell in general.  It’s become an abusive place to be and I HATE IT!  
It’s gotten so bad that Kelly told me his parents would open their doors to me if I needed it.  I don’t know how I feel about this. 

I should drive be drivin in a month if I can find the time to find a car.  That’s a little scary.  But I did put in 4 hours of drive-time on the road trip up here to Colorado.  🙂
I also need to find the time for insurance benefits cuz I fucked my knee up in the beginning of Jan.  I got out of bed a morning in the middle of a convention and I ate the floor.  Ever since then it hasn’t been working right.

I am usually so busy now I don’t have time for shit.  I have to-do lists for my to-do lists, man.
As a matter of fact, Sunday night=2 1/2 hrs of sleep
Monday night= 4 hrs of sleep
Tuesday night= 5 hrs of sleep
Wednesday night= 3 1/2 hrs of sleep
Thursday night= I GET TO SLEEP IN!  :O  Which is good, cuz I’m pretty delirious.  I’m never running on all cylinders lately…

So, that’s my update.  Hope everyone is good!!!!! 🙂

 -INMATE-