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or how they feel what they need and want 9:25pm Me see you dont fucking listen this is your problem i hope sabrina someday sees the light or you its just annoying get some therapy and stop talking to me watch your and sabrinas passive aggressive relationship fall apart again and again i dont want anything to do with it anymore 9:25pm Bethann send your im’s in parts so you dont have to message them 9:26pm Me bye you are making me angry and i cant have anger 9:26pm Bethann how am i? im listening and for me to listen im going to tell you what i think to who’s to say that your right ? whos to say that im right? no one so talking about how we feel is the only way 9:30pm Me you contradict everything i say so what is your point in wanting to talk to me if you dont agree ? 9:31pm Bethann idk all i wanted to really say was that if you feel heart broken over sabrina texting me and still loving me than please see how you hurt her the same way with dan even tho she dint say anything about it for the same reason she doesnt tell me stuff she was scared it would change something’ 9:32pm Me well it is not the same but you dont see that 9:32pm Bethann my love for her burns. i could never see her, never talk to her , never touch her and my heart would still burn for her to be safe. be tell me how its different, please i really want to know because she see’s it as the same thing and i do to so please tell me how its different 9:34pm Bethann be without people telling her how to think and what to say 9:35pm Bethann just let her mind and soul lead her 9:37pm Bethann i like how your talking and not avoiding 9:37pm Me like i said i tell the truth about everything if she asks me a question i tell her if she felt sad she should have said something i told her from the beginning and asked her SEVERAL times before getting her involved if it hurt her or made her feel bad. she says no. i was heartbroken over the lies and misleading way she handled it with you and the fact that she was diong so good until that last day idk you just sent her into wanting to kill herself and then she said she regretted everything me and her did it just heartbreak over the fact that it was all fake NOT that she loved someone else. 9:37pm Bethann shows that you are strong its bold 9:39pm Me i tried to make it clear from the beginning that all feelings should be told NO MATTER WHAT and no one will judge you. but she didnt do that so that is why it didnt work for her that is why she was heartbroken now that i know that it wont work unless you are mentally stable i know that i wont be in another relationship for a while and she should only be in one or none also 9:41pm Me and just a reminder DONT EVER PUT HER DOWN DONT FUCKING CALL HER A SLUT 9:41pm Bethann she never said she loved you tho. she dint get heartbroken because she was not telling the full truth but because she knew she couldnt have you unless you were with him to and thats not what she wanted. she thinks its wrong and i really dint make her think that. 9:41pm Me i dont care if you call me one because i know better 9:42pm Bethann i never lie to her besides the stuff that i did with you but sense than nothing. sabrina never listens and its always her way and she doesnt see the things she does to hurt herself or others until its over with. 9:43pm Me but she has been taught by her past by being molested and raped that she cant say no when a guy asks her to do something it might sound stupid to yu but its the truth and some people cant help it i didnt get any pleasure from sex for 2 years but i still did it and gave head send naked pics etc cause i couldnt say no 9:43pm Bethann when i say stuff that can brake into her heart like that and makes her think abouyt what she’s doing and who she wants to be it makes her say hey look what im doing im having sex with bethann, with ashely with donovan 9:44pm Me no it makes her think everything she is doing is wrong it makes her HATE HERSELF 9:44pm Bethann thats not the kind of person i want to be if you sit and say sabrina your going to get hurt and thats all you say she just says fuck it she needs to see what she’s doing wrong so she can grow and do the right things she points things out to me like that 9:45pm Me she wasnt going to have sex with donovan anymore i was trying to teach her in a normal healthy way to say no because it is her body i didnt have to call her a slut 9:45pm Bethann like what i did with you and ever sense she did that it opened my eyes and made me see what i did people need to be told because if they cant see it they have no reason to change and will just continue to hurt themselfs and others around her 9:46pm Me SHE’S NOT A FUCKING SLUT 9:47pm Bethann what do you call a person who fucks 3 people all at the same time and only loves one of them? and doesnt tell any of them about how she’s doing these other people 9:47pm Me maybe she just needs therapy to help these behaviors she is doing that she doesnt like but cant help it. maybe her therapist isnt doing enough for her. but i know for sure she isnt a slut 9:48pm Bethann if your doing anything with anyone just for the feeling thats what i call it i have been a slut many times all the three sums at your house i was a fucking slut! 9:49pm Me well that is YOUR OPINION but see she doesnt look at it like that she is obsessed with you so she takes it to heart and starts HATING HERSELF 9:49pm Bethann no she’s looking at it and decideing that she shouldnt be doing those things because its not right 9:50pm Me she says she doesnt deserve happiness and deserves no friends and death? 9:50pm Bethann she decided not to fuck around with donovan anymore because she now knows its not right 9:50pm Me because of what you say Bethann yes and she said this is a down point in her life because of the things she’s done but it will get better 9:51pm Me but she will do it again unless she learns to RESPECT HER OWN BODY 9:51pm Bethann once she decides to do the right things 9:51pm Me it doesnt matter if it is right or wrong 9:51pm Bethann right and wrong is what keeps us breathing 9:52pm Me she will do it again because of what happened to her no matter what promises she makes maybe a year from now and maybe with someone else but she will do it again because she DOESN’T SET BOUNDARIES 9:52pm Bethann what to do is the everyday question well when she gets hurt she will learn to 9:52pm Me she will make promises and break them and feel like shit later but she cant help it because she cant say no she feels like a little child no she wont she will just hate herself 9:52pm Bethann its just like when a little kid gets hurt when you tell them not to do something and they do it anyways they learn not to do that again 9:53pm Me until she finds someone who will teach her how to respect her body and set boundaries and LOVE HERSELF which is something i never see you help her do 9:53pm Bethann ummmm are you judging ask her way she loves me and if she tells you the truth you will see how much i help her 9:55pm Me im not saying shes gonna go fuck someone but im just saying in general she is going to keep letting people step all over her because she doesnt feel like she can say no because she doesnt love, respect, and honor herself. She doesnt know how to say no without feeling like she is hurting someone. she wont put her needs first because of what happened to her. 9:55pm Bethann oh no no no non no do you know sabrina almost all she says is no she always putsherself first and its always what she wants 9:56pm Me sexually? 9:56pm Bethann she’s not scared to say no just scared to tell the truth yea sexualy 9:56pm Me ok… 9:56pm Bethann everything wise 9:56pm Me you must not see what i see when i look into her eyes 9:57pm Bethann what hurt , pain, beauty wanting something real wanting to change hate anger love lies i always know when she’s lying when you two were dancing and i called she said she’s going to get off the phone and than i just knew she was doing something 9:58pm Me she doesnt lie because she wants to though 9:58pm Bethann i know her way to well 9:58pm Me she wasnt doing anything when she said she had to go 9:58pm Bethann lie you wrote you were kissing her neak while she was on the phone with me 9:59pm Me yeah thats me she wasnt doing anything back 9:59pm Bethann she lies because she doesnt want to deal with anything 9:59pm Me i stopped before she ended the phone convo with you 10:00pm Bethann she wants to get whatever she wants without hurting anyone witch the only way to do that is not tell each other 10:00pm Me she lies because she is afraid 10:00pm Bethann thats part of it to 10:01pm Me she wants to tell you the truth and she hates herself for the lies but she cant because she is afraid and all you do is reinforce that fear in her reinforce that self hatred 10:01pm Bethann way do you think she lied to you to? 10:01pm Me because she was afraid because she is not used to telling the truth 10:02pm Bethann cuz she dint want to tell you the truth about not wanting to do this if you were with dan cuz than she knew you would pull away 10:02pm Me she thought i would judge her if she didnt want to do this then why would she mind if i pulled away? 10:02pm Bethann she thought you wouldnt still keep doing whatever it was you two had going on if she said she wanted you to not be with dan and only her 10:02pm Me isnt that what she would want? 10:04pm Bethann she only wanted you but got jealous of dan and would never date you if you were with him but she still wanted you so still tried to make something work’ 10:04pm Me brb 10:04pm Bethann k idk why im telling you this crap