Depressed.. Trying to think positive.

Now I am breaking out in hives/rashes in more places than just by my tattoo I’m angry and sad this had to happen right before sonshine. I just wanted to have a good time. 🙁 . Another thing is that I hope I can control my anxiety at sonshine especially in the big crowds. I have been so excited for this for so long I hope everything turns out ok and we can have fun. Sabrina is going to sonshine now I’m pretty sure. I’m also pretty sure Kari, James & Tionna are going. I heard Kari doesn’t have the money to get in but I’m sure she’ll come up with it somehow. Mike and Kyle are also going, like I said before I’m not going to do anything with Kyle at all, like we hung out last night and it was awkward because I know he has seen me naked lol but we just hung out like old times, were we hardly talk we just are both friends with mike so we hang out together. So it’s like were kinah a little bit friends now even though I’m still kindah pissed at him for what he did. But whatever. I don’t care, were cool. Anyways. I’m also SUPER happy sabrina is coming! I hope we have so much fun I don’t even think about my rash thing, and plus my mom said she’s taking me to the doctor tomorrow so hopefully i’ll get something to help. I also think that it will help me cut down on smoking cause I hope we’ll be having too much fun to smoke. Like I said God will be there 🙂