Bethann
Really pisses me off. Sometimes we are friends but then we always go back to being angry at each other mostly the only time I am truly angry at her is when I feel like she is hurting Sabrina or putting the wrong kind of thinking in her mind. She sends me a IM saying
if you knew someone raped her why the hell dint you report it
9:17pmMe
It’s her fucking job to do that in the I urged her to report it, I’m the one who told her it was rape but she didnt want to and she cleaned herself up before she even fucking could talk to me about it which would be most of the evidence gone if she didn’t want to and I forced her to she would just deny it and it wouldn’t help her. All I can do it urge her to do it I can’t run her life and make decisions for her I can only give advice.
9:21pmBethann
nothing?
Even though at first she made me angry at first afterwords I get sad, maybe she should learn not to come off as such a bitch to people. I do feel bad for what happened to sabrina and afterwards kept thinking about how I should have talked her into it more to do something about it even though she didn’t want to. IDK. I just wish she hadnt hung up and washed herself because then it would be the first time that she could have reported something and then have evidence and that person would have went to jail, maybe she would feel more empowered. But I know that is the problem with a lot of rape victims they want to just wash it all away right away and forget about it. But now I just feel sad wishing I could have said something, been there, done something different. Guess I just wasn’t in my right mind and I’m always the type of person even since I did the thing with my mom to let her make her own choices. I always say its everyones job to make their own choices and figure out what is best for them on their own cause if you make choices and force things on them they will just rebel or maybe get better for a little but always go back to their old ways. I know this from personal experience of myself. So I always say that you can give someone advice but you can’t tell them exactly what to do. Still I just sit and fucking wish I could have said something more persuading because I know at that time she must have been so down down down.I Just wasn’t in the right state of mind.