what does he want from me?!

my mind is going crazy right now..my stomach hurts and it twinging

 Okay so there is this guy. Last year it was crazy..I don’t know. I  was a sophomore and didn’t live on campus but before I went to class I would stop by the cafeteria and grab a bottled water. There was a guy there he was a freshman but older, about 24. (he’s 4 years my elder). He came to me one day and was acting like he was or love or something? He sat next to me and talked to me asking me questions and asked for my phone number..I objected. Every once in a while we would run into each other at the school and he said I was beautiful and acted… different. I don’t know how to decribe it, it was lust, that I know.

He asked if I would join him for dinner one night. After numerous invites I finally said yes. At dinner he ordered a bottle of wine. After dinner he asked if I would like to go to a movie since the theater was right down the street. I decided what the heck and went. Before we went into the theater he asked if I wanted to stop by a nearby shushi bar for a quick drink before our show started. He had me take two shots of Grey Goose and then grabbed a Long Island Iced Tea to go and brought it in the theater..I should have known better. I am a petite woman and am barely five foot, By the time the movie started I was quite intoxicated. He asked if I wanted to leave because we were talking during the movie, I said yes.

Before I knew it we were pulling into the  parking garage of his condo. I walked through the doors and his place was amazing, I could tell he came from money. He headed to the bar and poured me a drink of a dark liquor (I’m not sure what) over ice..with no mixer. After that other drinks were poured..I don’t remember….

everything became a haze and before I knew it I was naked on the 27th floor of his balcony. I don’t remember much but some music and myself being placed on my back…

waking up the next morning was awful..I not only had the worst headache in the world but had the worst feeling in my gut. I felt like something was wrong. I felt mortified and so dirty…I wanted to grab my things and leave..but he was the one who drove me to his place so I was depending on him for a ride back to my car. He asked if I wanted a mimosa and I swallowed hard and nodded….I had never felt more uncomfortable in my life..

Eventually I got back to my car and missed my lab for the day.  I went home and felt ill. ..

Now I don’t know how someone would classify what happend? Was a a "bar slut"? Was a taken advantage of? Would this be considered rape?  I don’t know.

Today approximately nine months later I get a friend request from him on myspace…just the very sight of him made me feel like vomiting. I was so shook by it..I hope I never see him or talk to him ever again..