Threesome

Alright I’ve been meaning to write about this a while now it’s bothered me so much..

Almost a month ago my boyfriend asked me if I have ever had a threesome and if I would ever consider it. He said he didn’t know if I was that much of a freak.

*please keep in mind this whole conversation was through text messages

I replied that why

and then well yes I have thought about it. My girl friends and I have discussed it and our decision was that if we were out one night, having a good time (most likely drinking) and we decided to have a threesome it definately would be spur of the moment and it would be with us (my best friend and I) and a man we would probably not see much again or ever ..

he replied oh so you would go do that and not tell me about it?! you would get some and I wouldn’t huh?

I replied: no no I wouldn’t be having a threesome if I was in a serious relationship..that shit is for the single life.

he said: why is it for the single life?

I said: because first of all I am way too jealous of come other cunt touching my man…second of all I think it might give my boyfriend the idea that it is okay to start sleeping with other women (he could cheat while Im working or something like that and say "oh well remember that one time…you didn’t care then")

he said no it wouldn’t give the boyfriend the right to think that

so finally i getfed up and reply: so what you’re saying is I am not enough and I cannot satisfy you alone?!

he said no I love you and only you. I was just thought it would be different

me: well from the sounds of things you make me feel different

the last thing he said was: I thought you knew me better than that. well if you think that’s the way I am this won’t work between us

i said: alright lets drop it

so that was pretty frustrating..I had all these thoughts rushing through my mind all throughout the week..

-has he already had a threesome before?

-if he’s thinking about a threesome WHO did he have in mind? He he already talked to her?

-why am I not enough for him?!

-what is wrong with me?

I cried myself to sleep for the next two nights then started to drink…..

finally I got the nerve up..I just wanted to know..so I said "look I know I said we should drop it but, have you had a threesome before?" he replied "no"

and so it’s over, the talking anyway, I still think about it from time to time..

I guess it’s so easy for us to get into little spats like that because we have a long distance relationship..we are trying to hard…

I just get depressed sometimes. It will all be better when we get to see each other..