telling him was the hardest part..

so I did it. I decided to do what’s best for me in the long run and move to Denver to start school. It felt like the hardest thing in my life. I left someone I love so much.  He is so amazing, so incredible. He really makes me feel alive.

I cried, cried, and cried more when I found out I had to leave for Colorado in 8 days. I told him the next day. He told me not to worry because he wanted to make it work. When I tell people that I can see a sense of false hope in their faces. He said he really loves me and we can move to San Diego after so I can get a good job and he can transfer to a base there. At first I had my doubts, but now for some strange reason I am feeling alright about it.  I don’t know…my mind and heart do flips when I think about that man. I can honestly say that I’d like to spend the rest of my life with him, of course I won’t say anything  remotely close of the sort  to him, lol.

Am I mad? Insane for thinking that me moving away for two years is alright and we’ll still be together? We talk everyday..we have plans to visit in october, spend Christmas with his family..and in May I’ll be moving back to Florida to work that summer job again and I’ll be with him.  A million thoughts run through my mind everyday..I believe my brain is exhausted..I need a way to unwind but am not sure how? Walking at sun up will suffice for now

Anyway..I started school today, I have this little feeling obtaining my Bachelor’s of Science in Nutrition might be a tad more difficult than my Associates was. 🙂 I do have Biochemistry tomorrow so I must head off to bed…