so I’m not normal…ha

Holy cow, I just got done working out and man..I cannot breath! That is horrible. I should work out more, I mean I am a nutrition major.  Plus..I have to be toned because I’m GOING BACK TO FLORIDA woohoo! but..what I wanted to discuss isn’t about exercise..

alright so there’s this guy..I love my boyfriend don’t get me wrong, I would never dream of cheating on him or anything. So this guy..he goes to my school, he just showed up this last term actually. One day I was eating  lunch in the cafeteria and I glance up and see this guy: tan, dark hair (just like my boyfriend) and wearing a shirt that my boyfriend also owns walks in. Well of course it grabbed my attention..my boyfriend is in Florida a couple thousand miles away..this guy is cute…damn

so I don’t really know anything about him. I know he lives on campus, as do I. He is a freshman as opposed to me, I’m an old lady ha. I never talk to him, I occasionally  just see him in the cafeteria. But sometimes I catch him looking at me. .it’s weird.

so this is the "i’m not normal part"..now I think about this guy..like wondering how he is in the bedroom and what it’d be like to have wild sex with him, I’ve even masturbated to the thought of him..woah..girls don’t think like that?! well I DO..call me a perv, weird whatever..

the thing is..I kind of feel guilty.. I have a boyfriend, he’s a great guy (despite some things I might mention on here, but it’s my diary right?) I mean he has probably done some shit like that before..but he’s a guy so I don’t expect him not to..

sometimes when I catch him looking he looks away real quick, but I sit and look at him until he looks back and lock to make suductive eye contact..it’s a bad habit I have..but mostly harmless flirtation

ugh..I’m a fool for doing it..I’m just glad school’s almost out..I won’t see him anymore