lost control

I’m so confused right now

I feel like time is running out and I’m no logner in control..

I know I am "young" accoring to some but I feel like I am out of hope. I know I need to start school but I have tumbled into love. I told myself it would never be this way. I wouldn’t let love make my decisions for me. I feel like I’m constantly winding down a huge slide, it keeps turning me this way and that way. I know what I need to do but everytime I think about leaving I find myself bawled up and crying uncontrolably.

I don’t want to  be alone ,I want him to hold me and tell me we can be together and we don’t need anything else. We need only each other to survive.

We don’t need food or water just the breath of each other to stay alive.