from breaking up to getting married?

this morning was awful..the worst.

well it starts off last night…

 I was studying with some friends then after they decided to play racketball and I was watching. My boyfriend called and I couldn’t really hear him  so I asked if he’d be up for a bit. He said just to call him later. I figured that after the tourney i was going home. Well the guys say ‘Oh you’ve got to come w/ us to get slurpies after the tourney we always go" I’m like "alright what the hell" we were looking for a Sonic for what seemed forever..

by the time I got home it was an hour since I had talked to my boyfriend, it was about midnight and I knew he had to work early so I just figured I’d call him in the morning. I texted him a message saying goodnight and went to bed. This morning I called him and he was infuriated. He said I should have at least sent him a message saying I would just get a hold of him tomorrow b/c we were going to eat something to eat..he said he waited and got mad. Well I agreed and I said I was sorry, I felt bad..Still he would not talk to me..he was being all quiet on the phone and I said "I"m sorry what else can I say? " nothing but silence so I told him I had to get ready because I just got out of the shower he says fine. Before I got off the phone I said I loved him and he just hung up….

wow this was a shock, even if we’re mad we still say I love you to each other. I started crying immediately..myabe Im a little emotional by this time of the month but still I was upset. A few moments later I recieve a text message: "I don’t think this is going to work"  WHAT?! i reply: "what do you mean" : "I mean me and you" : "if you want to talk about this can you call me please?" :ring ring

I was crying pretty hard at this point..I asked him what was wrong, he says "nothing" blankly. I asked him why he was saying that stuff to me and he said I need to concentrate on school…"concentrate? I moved from Florida to Colorado to concentrate" he said that I didn’t need him in my life. I just sat there..

 ME/ HIM :"why would you say that? are you serious"  "no" "what?"  "no I’m not serious"

I was so confused at this point..then he proceeds to tell me that he was just "testing me to see my reaction"..what? He said that the majority of this previous girlfriends said "fine fuck you then" and he later found out they were cheating on him the whole time..by him telling this it kind of hurt my feelings, no it DID hurt my feelings. He said sorry, that he didn’t mean to make me cry but ..I dont’ know.I was really upset.

I asked him if he knew how much I was in love with him and if he knew I  have never felt this way about anybody. He just kept saying sorry and that it would never happen again..it was just something he needed to know. He contnued to tell me how much he was in love with me and told me he wanted to marry me.

wow. I always wanted him to say that..I always felt I wanted to marry him but didn’t say anything in fear of freaking him out…

it’s not like he proposed, he just told me he wanted to. I have more school to finish, an internship,  he has to go back out to sea, etc.

I just …wow what a day and it all happend in like two hours