Not the day for parables

I had intended to share a story today that only Infertiles could find amusing, but today is not the day for that. I had my first ultrasound today after starting stims on Thursday. My lazy ovaries are only producing four eggs.     Rather than continue and risk retrieving only one viable egg, or possibly none, my Dr. decided to stop the cycle, let my period come, and start the stims again more aggressively on the next cycle. I am to continue with 20 units of Lupron and start taking Femara next week. According to good old wikipedia, Femara is a popular alternative to the dreaded Clomid because it has fewer side effects. The most common side effects are sweating, hot flashes, joint pain, and fatigue, all of which I was already experiencing. I am supposed to call on the first day of my period to receive the next schedule; which does not make planning for work or life very effective. I am just at a loss for words right now. This is just another speed bump; another lesson in a long string of lessons in patience and coping in situations in which I have little to no control. There are days when I can find a bitter, sarcastic humor in this whole process. There are also days like today when I just feel deflated and defeated.

Kind of like that guy.