Fertility

 I want a baby so badly that I have to practice very conscious impulse control every time i see a small human so that I don’t scare parents with the unnatural amount of attention I pay their children. 

We stopped using birth control in February and found out about the cancer in April. I try very hard to dissipate my anger at myself for waiting. I couldn’t have known. But I guess that is the point. We never know what tomorrow will bring, so we should live our lives as if tomorrow we will find out we, or those we love most, could die of cancer. 

We have an appointment tomorrow with the fertility center to find out our options before he starts radiation.