catch up

I have a cat and a CJ in my bed, both fast asleep. They make me smile. Every once in a while, CJ stirs in his sleep and mumbles to me in Spanish. It usually ends with "te amo mi amor tanto tanto mucho mucho"

So a little catch up.

I turned down the social work job. Financially, I just couldn’t swing the instability. I turned it down on good terms though. They understood but they still really want to hire me and they will keep my resume on file and call me if they have another full time position that I am qualified for. Which sounds like a pretty good deal to me.

I am refinishing a coffee table that used to me at my Mamie’s beach house. I have had it for several years and just ignored the scratches and chipping stain and polish. I figured I should take advantage of my mom’s garage while I still live here. I will post a picture of it when it is finished. I am so excited about having time to be crafty.

My boss is demonstrating his confidence in me by giving me more responsibility at work, which is exciting and a little scary. I am in charge of boosting the sales of our items with the biggest price margin: determing sales strategies, setting sales goals, keeping the other associates on track with those goals, tracking sales etc. Completely out of my element and experience range, but we will see how I do. I was supposed to train to open the store last week, but the guy who was supposed to train me ended up being an hour and a half late. So I opened the store by myself, which was probably the best way to learn anyway.

I lost about 5 pounds without realizing it. Which is messing with my head. Because now I am obsessing about it and maintaining the weight loss, which just makes me focus even more on food, which leads to bingeing, which then makes me feel like crap. Gr. I could just stop weighing myself, which is what Lyss did. But that did not go over well in Africa. What I need to do is focus on eating healthy food when I am hungry as a way of keeping my body fueled. What I need even more is to just get over the ED mentality altogether…

CJ and I have been excitedly planning our trip to Chile to visit his family in September or October. Our discussions are full of tentative, shy, giddy plans for the future. Our future. Wherever that may lead us. So many possibilities.