back to square 1

So. I didn’t get the job. Which is frustrating, disappointing, and oddly a little relieving. I crief for a couple minutes yesterday after getting off the phone with HR and was in a funk the rest of the day at the law office I volunteer with. I really wanted this job. However, something warmsushi most recently wrote in his diary seems pretty applicable to my life right now. It was something to the effect that despite having a pretty awful day/month, it is hard to be overwhelmed by it all because beneatht the momentary frustrations, he is happy and content.

I was a little confused by my underlying feeling of relief at not getting this job. However, upon reading that sentiment it is all becoming a little clearer. That contentment tends to emerge when I have the right people in my life. Since I graduated and even more since I moved back to my mom’s house, I have reconnected with my two best friends and started a new friendship a couple months ago that is growing even stronger. So despite being unemployed, frustrated with living at my mom’s, breaking up with BW, and not getting this job…it is all starting to roll of my shoulders a little more. I am feeling more duck-like. Quack!

And yes, I am a little relieved because this means I will still be in this area with these people. I think I am actually starting to get understand the concept of: "It’s not what you are doing, but who you are with."

Last night my new friend convinced me to come over to his place on my way back from the law office. He had made me a shrimp and spinach salad with grapes for dessert. After about an hour of good conversation and a few jokes, I felt 20 times better. Today Skippy is coming over to watch old movies with me while I do laundry and Lyss and I are going to see "A Christmas Carol" tonight. My friends have so much healing power.