weird

For some reason I thought I had a lot of friends around here. I guess it never occurred to me that after college the amount of people with whom I could hang out at any moment exponentially decreased. And then it happened. Chris told me Drew had an extra (suite) ticket for him to go to the game tonight. I said that was fine – go ahead and have fun – then promptly set up a happy hour with my coworker-friends. And then the unthinkable happened. Said coworker-friends also somehow got (suite) tickets to the same game (different suite). So where, exactly, does that leave me? Not at the game, and certainly not at a happy hour for one. That’s all I’ve got. Al went home for the weekend, Chris & Drew at game, Jeff & Bryan at game, the rivers hath run dry.

So I just ordered papa john’s online (should be here in another 10-15 min) and am watching Keeping the Faith on tv. With my laptop on my lap. Because it’s practically attached to me. But anyway I really like this movie, but I’m pretty sure I cry at one point – I don’t remember which point so that’ll be fun when I get to it. And then bam the tears hit. Fucking double x’s. Oop… slight welling of the eyes… not quite crying… just welling…

I’m sorry, I really am, but you’re going to get a play-by-play for pretty much the rest of the night because I’m damned lonely. FUCK. I suck – I used to do this, used to know how to be alone. An entire summer I did this! I’m just psyching myself out. I do that.

THERE WE GO – SOBS. I totally called that.

Don’t feel like writing anymore.

(indecision)