way to wreck an evening

Tonight we were all supposed to have some major family-bonding time. Tomorrow Carrie goes back to college, so we had intended to first go out to eat, then come home and watch movie. Well, we went out, came back, but never quite got to the movie. My parents had this huge fight over something which I am not going to discuss. Merely because I do not feel like discussing it… nothing too bad though. I detest how aggressive my father gets when he is upset. I detest how passive my mother is when she is upset. I detest the process of their fighting in front of my sister and I. I detest how my father refuses to see what my mom MEANT, and I detest how my mother refuses to see that she had some error in the entire thing as well. I detest how they try to get us into it… I detest how my mom apologizes to my sister and I as if she committed some crime. I detest how they’re both so set in being passive or aggressive. I hate it.

The whole time, I just kept thinking, “Oh, way to wreck the evening guys…” My poor sister… she’s leaving tomorrow after an evening of THIS. My dad stormed off and decided he was going to practice saxophone while we watched the movie we’d rented. But my mom decided she was going to sulk or cry or try to plead with him instead of just letting it rest. So my sister and I sat downstairs while the two were somewhere else in the house, watching tv. Eventually Carrie went up to take a shower, and I came online. Several hours later… I’m still here. Aims wanted to see a movie tonight. Scratch that. Meg went dancing tonight. Scratch that. Erin just stayed home… being the loving sister that she is. But NO… the evening was tense and horrible instead.

I wish… I don’t know what I wish. Tomorrow at least I think I have 8 hours to myself while they drive her home. If they both go now. Who knows. AHH.

I’m

~swept away in a fight~

@~>~>-dreamergrrl

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