Things

I’m not quite sure what I plan on writing about. In fact, I have no clue why I’m writing an entry. I just somehow logged onto the OD knowing I was going to write SOMETHING. This entry is just going to be one of the stream of consciousness things, so bare with me…

The movie “Pleasantville” is on right now. Talk about a great movie. There’s so much symbolism, so many lessons and points. I love it. If only people would see how much a movie like that holds… and learn from it.

Aims and I are still not too sure what’s up with Jaims. Today when Aimee and I went to the pool we called Jaimie to see if she wanted to come. This was at around 4:30 or so. Jaimie said that she had a softball game at 8:15… (as if this were a problem four hours in advance) She said she wouldn’t be able to stay awake. I’m very sorry, but that really doesn’t seem like that great of a reason to not hang out with us.

For those of you who do not know the situation, Jaimie used to be my best friend, and ever since April we’ve not been on the best terms. Especially since the Myrtle Beach trip in May we’ve not talked very much at all. I’m not sure whether she’s distancing herself consciously or subconsciously, but I wish we could just stay friends.

Throughout the year she’s mentioned how at the end of every year she’s lost her friends and made new ones each year. Now that this year is at it’s end, it seems like it’s coming true. I’m not sure whether she’s just distancing herself so that she won’t be hurt… (but I would never stop being her friend). Perhaps she’s one of those people who needs something new; a change. Ever since she became friends with Ann, those two spend all their free time together. Mind you, Ann’s cool and all – she’s one of my friends, but it always seems like suddenly we’re out of the picture. Each new person that Jaimie meets seems to be her best friend for awhile. I just don’t know anymore.

Meanwhile my driver’s ed classes are over, and I’ve finished my first week of gym. I ran another mile today. Thank goodness, I’m a lot less sore, but still…

I just finished downloading a “Matrix” screen saver and desktop themes. It’s sweet. Lol! It’s making me very happy…

I’m debating whether or not I should discuss Peter now. I don’t know why I would, because really nothing has happened now to bring that about, nor will anything happen for about five years. But somehow it’s on my mind. I feel I need direction on some things, and I have none. My mind just flutters around the same people getting all confused and stuck in a spider’s web. There’s no hope it seems.

“Nothing’s gonna change my world.” la la la

Perhaps I will write another entry about Peter. I’m thinking he deserves an entire entry. I can’t decide… too many things… everything has problems. I find a road, then find a fork. At each end of the fork there seems to be a road block. And I hate it.

@~>~>-dreamergrrl