stop being ridiculous

I just can’t let it go for some reason. I want to be strong and supportive and somewhat independent, but the ugly truth is I’m really struggling with this. I don’t want to be oppressive, but it’s happened twice now. That’s nothing, I realize, but the whole thing is new. Since when have I been the lonely wife sitting at home? And technically I knew he would be late, and I planned on going shopping (which I did), but since when was going to a movie part of his plan? Thought they were just working late on an idea… And since when does Chris go out? Downtown? After work? He never wants to go out when I suggest it… Ever. Whether he knows it or not he’s starting to give me a complex. And while I like Ben and Ryan, I don’t really… Trust them yet. They’re not my boys too, and I therefore don’t have a comfort level with them all being out…

Listen to me, I even hate myself. I hear the garage door – guess he’s finally home. And no I didn’t wait up for him – I am already in bed. Just was festering in my head. iPhone entry…

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