Me (200th entry!)

This is my 200th entry, and all night I was trying to determine what I was going to write… it’s kind of a landmark in my diary. Well the past hour has decided for me. I’m going to talk about me.

I am currently the product of America. I am a Christian, white female of the turn of the millennium. Well, duh, you say. But that’s just the surface of me. Until today, I pretty much knew my heritage. The one side of my family is primarily of German decent, while the other has Swedish, Russian, and Native American blood. Basically I’m what my mom calls a “mongrel”.

Less than an hour ago, as my sister, father, mother, and I sat around the lunch table, my dad told us something else. My grandfather on my dad’s side has always been relatively secretive about his background, but we knew that he was Russian. Apparently, he’s actually Russian Jewish. I guess my dad, aunt, and uncle never were actually told that he was Jewish because he decided to not embrace the religion at all. He broke away from Judaism and when he married my grandmother, the rest of the family became primarily Christian.

All these years, and I had no idea that I had a quarter of Jewish blood. My grandfather on my mom’s side is a bigot. He doesn’t know my dad’s family has Jewish background, and he never will know. It would create so many problems! It’s horrible – he’s so prejudiced. I remember him saying once, that “Hitler did a lot for those people!” despite the fact he fought in WWII. I didn’t know this then, but I just stood up for what I knew to be true… I couldn’t believe he was siding with him. (just another reason among many that the two of us do NOT get along) So anyway, he definitely cannot know.

Meanwhile, I guess my dad doesn’t feel people need to know about this. He’s told us he doesn’t keep a secret, but also doesn’t believe it’s anyone’s business unless the information is needed for medical background. I don’t know.

Basically, Aims I know I can trust you, and kind of wanted you to know, I guess. All you readers out there – I don’t see any problem that could be caused by you guys knowing, considering I don’t know you, and you don’t know me. And the weird part was, my parents weren’t sure how we were going to take this at all. I don’t know, I’m kind of excited about it for some reason. I’m still a devoted Christian – that will never change. But to know where I came from is just sort of thrilling, you know? I think it’s really cool that I’m Native American too, but hey – I’ve known that for quite awhile. This is something totally new and unexpected to look into.

Allow me, as part of my 200th entry, to list a few people’s diaries who have truly been awesome during my time here. If I don’t mention yours, it’s not because I don’t read, and it’s not because I don’t love you. I just want to say something special to a few people.

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Aims, I don’t know what I would do without you. You’re the first diary I read every time I log on. You’re the first person who knows my secrets, you’re my best friend. I love you!

Guitar Girl
Bren, you’re truly an awesome person. I’ve known your diary for quite awhile now, and you never fail to either make me cry or make me feel so much better. Thank you.

saxy
Ahh, my evil twin! Lindsey, it’s so strange how anybody so far away could possibly be just as dork as me. I relate to your diary so well, and am a devoted reader! J

snickergirl
Just recently I’ve begun to love your diary! Sometimes I feel totally the same way as you, and don’t worry – we’ll find Mr. Darcy some day!

the confused monkey
I know you don’t write anymore, Phil, but your diary was one of the firsts that I regularly read, no matter what. I’m still working on the dream theories!

theDrummer
Jake, how could I not mention your diary? For a month at least, your diary was my favorite, the one I logged on for. Your notes were the reason I checked my notes so often. All I can say is I was in love with our online chats at 1 o’clock. (You heart-throb!) *gag* ;P

mmhhh hum
Lol, good ol’ Hirsute (I don’t care WHAT you call yourself now!). You’ve been on my favorites list for quite awhile now. You never fail to ~scramble~ me!

Well, there are others whose diaries I read every time I log on as well, but there were a few people I just had to pick out!

I will always be in love with life. I will always adore *orange pants*. I will always love the piano more than anything in the world. I will always love my sister more than anyone in the universe. I will always be a band nerd, no matter if I’m in band or not. I will always be who I am, what I am, and will always know why I am. I will never forget my family, my cat, my friends, or this diary. And, I will always be, as always,

~swept away by the hall current of life~

@~>~>-dreamergrrl

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