GRRRRRRRRR

Sometimes… I just get so upset at my parents. For the past two days I’ve tried so hard to help my mom… and she’s been really appreciative. But all of a sudden people are treating me like dirt again. My sister and I were trying to see if we could do push-ups, and since she can’t use her one leg she was attempting one-legged push-ups. Well my mom got all upset that she was going to hurt herself again, and got agitated when I was unsuccessfully getting her up off the floor. I mean, I got her up eventually. But anyway, then I just kind of tilted her back, and my mom flipped out me. “(my first name) (my middle name) STOP IT RIGHT NOW!” You know it’s bad with both names. Then a few seconds later I was just like, come… to my sister, and she was just like, no, not now. So my mom who didn’t even SEE anything, turned around and screamed “JUST STOP TOUCHING YOUR SISTER!!!!” Fine. FINE. I fricking DIDN’T DO A SINGLE THING. I DIDN’T TOUCH HER AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!

GRRRRRRRR. So I plopped myself down on the couch in an attempt to be difficult and make a point. (Not that that ever works.) My sister says, “I’m going to go to physical therapy before leaving.” Riiight… where are you leaving TO? And she informs me were going on a ride to see Christmas lights. Ok, my family strikes again. I’m NEVER informed of ANYTHING we do. Just all of a sudden it’s like, oh, we forgot to tell you what you’re doing? Oh, that’s too bad, cause you’re doing it anyway. FINE.

So I finally just stormed down here in another fit of complete disgust, knowing that because my mom had unjustly accused me she couldn’t stop me from coming online again. So here I am writing. Nice.

You know, I was so totally relieved that I was really starting to get along with my mom. Really. And ya know what? Screw it… because I’m the youngest child, and everything is always my fault ever since my sister got injured. Not that I’m saying it’s my sister’s fault… because I feel horrible seeing her in pain. I want to cry so hard because she can’t walk very well. She can’t ski this year, she can’t run, I don’t know when it’ll get back to normal. Meanwhile all her physical therapy is causing so much pain – I hate it. But it’s also annoying because I have to do everything now instead of my sister. I don’t mind taking care of anything SHE needs, but it’s sort of like, well, she CAN do some things, you know? And she’s good about letting my mom know she can, but not always.

*sigh*

~swept away in sister land~

@~>~>-dreamergrrl

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