goodness… didn’t mean to drive you all away

I didn’t know my insanity was that scary. Apparently it was. Like beaucoup? Suddenly my reader response shot down to like two people. A fellow mad person 😛 and my best friend. Hmmmm…

So Peter/Gretchen’s grandmother just died this morning. I felt so bad… I ran into Peter on the way to Wind Ensemble rehearsal tonight (he had an orchestra concert) and he told me. How life does tie in… just today in English class my group began our two day lesson plan on love and loss. I read “In Memoriam” by Tennyson… and told about the loss of my grandpa in February. Many people in my class had similar stories, and then to find out about this. Mysterious ways. *glances upward quickly in the Wallick way*

I am very happy to say, that out of a total of about 2 1/2 hours worth of band rehearsals today… (well if you count orchestra it’s way more… but I won’t) I only played alto for about, oh, say 20 minutes of it! YEAH playing piano in band. Apparently Mommy was talking to my mom about how he usually has trouble getting people to play piano in band. Hi, um, I LOVE IT??? So it’s great.

Squad leader interviews were today. Unfortunately mine had to be in a group cause Dad’s too incompetent to plan his time to fit us all in our own times. NIIICE. Bah. Oh well… I think Aims and I will get it. I hope Jill doesn’t. I hope Chrissie doesn’t. Like, beaucoup.

I felt very much not invisible today. Why was this? Much sophomore interaction taking place for Aimee and I. Both tuba Matts were being unusually talkitive, as well as sir Alex. Who has taken to this habit of just running into me as we’re walking. I enjoy that. I also enjoy him tearing my combo rehearsal notice out of my fingers and shoving it into his locker and not giving it back to me. Much physical shoveing was necessary to attempt to obtain it… but it’s still in his locker. He was like, well you know where to find them if you want another one. Nice. (but no… really…) But WHAT IS UP WITH THAT SENIOR?????? Really getting on my nerves. I know her last name, but her first slips my mind. Making me mad… I’ve known her since 5th and 6th grade band. Flute in Scarlet band now. Hangs out with the combo boys during 10th mod, and was flirting with him in Myrtle Beach and all that. Well BAH to that, I say.

But back to not being invisible… Yeah and Eric, whom I really don’t like morally at all, has become quite chatty with me. (Alright Meg I finally understand) But he’ll just be talking to me and put his arm over my neck in that very Eric “I’m just being weird” way. But not like in a “I’m just pretending to be your friend to be mean” type of way… more as in a “yeah ok so you’re a lot cooler than you were in jr. high and we get along now so let me tell you about my great car” type of way. Make sense? Probably not. Jon said we did a nice job in class. Wonderful online conversation… he was ecstatically in a great mood from the homework my group assigned – to write a love letter. Which I presume will be about Ms. Jean. But that’s alright… I’m all good with Jon now, and I’m really looking forward to reading it. Oh, and I’m really getting along with the drummers lately? Brian especially, but also Shawn and Nate, who I never knew even talked? Ron’s being nice lately, as well as Scott, but then again Scott’s always nice? Phil and I have started talking/collaborating (yes I KNOW I spelled that wrong… this is me not caring 😐 ) again. We shared answers (some of which I actually contributed) during history today… and then in pre-calc and online… yeah it’s good. Oh, right… and then seeing Peter lately. Always nice. And talking to Andy online. Always lovely. Heck, I was even getting along With Mike J. today. Talking before squad leader interviews and such. Oh, and Jay… my twin, lol. Yeah what a great kid – always very nice in the halls and in class or whatnot. Steve too… but he’s always been a great kid. What is this??

I sound boy crazy. Really I’m not. I’m just really enjoying this… niceness.

Stress? What? King Pellinore? Yeah well I’m ignoring it for this entry.

Much love, and as always, I’m being

~swept away in visibleness~

@~>~>-dreamergrrl

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