emotionally unstable? (aka PMSing)

I’m emotionally unstable. Again? Ahh, it’s terrible… it really is. I just can’t handle any of this. I cried so much today. Tears during the English movie about the 4 girls that died in the Birmingham Church bombing of ’62. Tears on the verge of crying just talking to Mrs. B about senior project? She kept asking what I wanted to do if training weren’t a problem… no clue! This is the point! I don’t know what I want! Then I came home and talked to my mom. I apologized for the entire incident yesterday, another thing I should probably talk about, and again… crying. Lots. Loads. Buckets. “Here’s the story of a grrl, who cried a river and drowned the whole world!”

Right, so yesterday I woke up a little late and was getting ready to go to Dani’s for a physics/calculus review at 11 am. Well, scratch that time, because it just didn’t happen. I was having this terrible hair day. One of those days where you flip your hair right side up after drying it upside down, and realize that it’s a big huge frizzy mass that is permanently… sticking up away from your head? Something had to be done… I had to pull it back. Anyway, I couldn’t find the only barrette that works. I know it seems ridiculous, but there’s only one out of about 50 in my house that actually works for my hair, and I hadn’t seen it since my mom cleaned my room. I wasn’t trying to blame her, but she took it the wrong way. She tried to find substitutes and I kept refusing them because they didn’t work at all. It was bad… it was stupid… Mom and I rarely fight. Bah.

So we eventually apologized sort of, and I went off to Dani’s at around 11:40. Garett arrived at 12:15, and we proceeded to do nothing for the next hour and a half. Seriously nothing. I cried a little, we were depressed together, we talked, we laughed, we blasted music, we pigged out on my birthday cake, and it was good. When her mom got home, we finally worked on physics and calculus a little, but not too much. We made sure to get some back rubs in there.

In the process of almost studying, Dani decided that she was going to stay home during the Super Bowl and have a party. She, Goo, and I went out and bought, well, food. JP came over at 5:30, Meera came from work at 6:15, and we pigged out further. Basically I was at Dani’s for 9 hours… and I’m pretty sure that at least the 3 of us never really stopped eating. Or munching, or something. It was fun though… it was great and it got me out of my house. Wow do I need to go to college!

Saturday was the Top 25 competition. The choir was 1st after prelims, and the combo was 1 point away from the combo award! AHHHH. Anyway, they had no energy by finals and placed 3rd, but the combo sooooo rocked during finals. We were seriously sweet. Did I mention I love the combo? I really do… I love that the 8 of us get along and actually hang out this year. So much fun… love it.

So I’m emotionally unstable for no apparent reason, and I had a pretty good weekend. Gotta love high school.