contemplative ponderings…. wait that’s not righ

I’m still being rather contemplative, but some things have disturbed that thought process a little. I’m pondering, which is NEVER good.

Oh, and there IS a distinction. Contemplative is thinking deeply into anything, and pondering is thinking deeply about a personal relationship or event that is happening in your life.

Anyway, this year I believe one of my greatest accomplishments was simply getting over being so self-conscious. I’ve been extremely comfortable with myself this last semester, am truly myself, and could care less what some people think of me. Tonight I went to discussion group (a part of my youth group) for the first time in awhile, and for some odd reason I felt myself becoming self-conscious again. Maybe it has to do with the whole summer=shorts thing. That’s always been the greatest cause for self-consciousness (besides bathing suits of course), and perhaps that’s what made me uneasy. But even that should not be happening. Why should I care what someone thinks about my stupid legs? grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Ok, off subject. Whatever. The point is, I should think about SOMETHING ELSE.

@~>~>-dreamergrrl