Another friendship gone…

As I have written the incident down in my diary last night, I will start of by typing that entry into this one.

August 22, 2000
Dear Diary,

Ehh one more day of freedom! (And I’ll be spending it reading those oh-so-lovely 200 pages I have left.)

Tonight Eric was online. He’s already in (place where he moved), but he’ll be coming back up for one more week. As we were talking I made a rather rude, Jaimie-ish remark and apologized for it. Somehow we got to my saying I never even talk to her anymore. A few minutes later he said, “yeah I got the word from Jess.” I asked him what she’d said, because to be perfectly honest, I didn’t even know what was going on. Eric quoted Jess saying “they just don’t like each other anymore.” News to me.

First of all, it’s true – I rather despise Jaimie sometimes, but it’s partly due to the fact that she’s been treating me like crap lately. But hearing this from someone other than Jaimie herself means that she’s not kept the fact she doesn’t like me a secret. All those wierd things she was saying were about me… and she’s shared this openly with not only Ann, but Jess as well.

Eric remarked that I shouldn’t keep giving her chances because she’s been so rude to me lately. He mentioned the get-together. I wasn’t just making things up in my head. It was, in a way, nice to be able to talk about it though.

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There’s more to the entry, but I’ll stop there, as that is the only thing that pertains to this entry.

It was kind of a final blow to hear those words. I mean, I knew it was true, but to know that Jaimie has told people she doesn’t like me… it’s just wierd. To know that we could’ve been such close friends – the best friend I’d ever had (until now) – and now we’ve regressed into not even liking each other in the least. I hate it. I hate it so much. In the spring I used to call her and bawl my eyes out over the phone because it was seeming like our frienship was falling apart. She used to say don’t worry about it… As if she didn’t know what I was talking about. But all that time it was falling apart. We don’t even talk when we pass each other. She comes online. She gets offline. I say hello. She may say hi. We ignore. We look past.

Another frienship gone…

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