8/17/02
I feel like Im at camp. This is terrible. Horrible. I feel like Im at Reach Out for the first two days ever its the exact same feeling. They have all of these getting-to-know-you things, and I suck at it. I suck at this game and I hate this game. Meeting new people is not my forte when youre all stuck in a large area to roam about as you please. Put me in a classroom and Ill meet people. Put me on a marching field and Ill meet people. But this this is torture. Im not good at mixing I dont even like mixing. So I try to find people I at least sort of know and cling. I hate clingy people Im sorry for being one myself. I tend to be drawn toward my friends or acquaintances from home, and yet I really dont want to end up only hanging out with them. I want to meet people so badly but thats just it Im so bad at it.
I guess what makes it especially hard is not having a constant roommate. Almost everyone has at least one other person to walk with because they have their roommate. Well, Jamies in band they always have band rehearsal or a band movie or shes hanging out with her band friends shes rarely home. I guess thats good sometimes, because it gives me more alone time and privacy, and yet its hell on me socially.
Take right now for an example. Im sitting alone in my dorm room, door wide open, Avril Lavigne playing, and typing on my laptop. I feel like such a loser such an anti-social individual and yet theres really no choice right now. Ehh.
eh, if you’ve got the door open, you’re not being too anti-social. just let people that you meet know that they’re welcome to come in. *reminiscing tear in eye* ahh, dorm life…
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you’ve done really well though – your game skills are up!
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