I’m waiting

Things that I didn’t want to happen might be happening, but they aren’t happening and it’s annoying. Annoying actually means a lot of things.

It’s annoying that people are also deciding my future because they believe that we can go back to school during a pandemic. I feel very helpless on so many levels. The world is too heavy for me right now. I’m honestly too tired to explain. Like annoying here means devastating and also infuriating.

One thing that would be cool is if Dustin could be more understanding right now about things. And more emotionally help. You can clean the house and cook all the food until the end of time but if you cannot emotionally connect with me and understand me, it really isn’t something I care about.

I have almost moved to Oregon like five times this summer due to the way Idaho is dealing with COVID and how it affects my job and my life.

I’m just going to stop there. Like I said. I’m tired.

Words sounded like they’d help me and they’re making me more mad.