Post-Birthday

My birthday was pretty good this year. I liked it quite a but. I took the 9th off and Krys and I went on a harbour historical tour on one of the boats. It was good. Well, being on the water was…the tour guide was meh. It was really funny because we got to the ticket place and I had to stay away so I didn’t know which tour we were going on or price…and Krys came up to me a second later and was like…my wallet’s at home. So, in the end, I payed for my own birthday gift haha. It was really funny.

Krys also made me a cake, as she does every year. Always the same cake, but always fantastical!

Since my birthday (a week ago!) not too much has been happening. Just working and such. I have not been able to get out too much to see too much, but I’m still loving Halifax.

However, I have pretty much shut my brain off for work and such. I still want to see so many things in the city, but at the same time, I’m ready to be moving to Ottawa now. A friend and I are going to find a place together- Krys doesn’t know if she’s gonna join me yet in the capital. Anyway, as I said, I’m kind of ready to move on. I get like that fairly easily, though. Once I know that the next chapter in my life is just around the bend, I want to just jump on it right away.

I have realised that I have issues appreciating and living in the present. It’s hard for me to stop and smell the roses, really. Lately I have felt like I have been really busy and have so much to accomplish or get done. Even just stopping for a sec to give Krys a hug in return, I find I am getting antsy standing there b/c I feel like there are a million other things that I have to get done. I used to love cuddling in bed in the morning, but now I just want to get up, and do things- even small things like internet, dishes, and tv. And then I just get behind b/c I haven’t accomplished anything. I have not felt refreshed after my days off in a while now…basically since PEI.

I just need to learn to appreciate and accept my current situation and bask in the present. I know there is so much beauty in the world around me, but it’s hard, as I said, to just stop and relax. Maybe I should practice meditation or something…just to slow me down a little and to re-introduce my past calmness into my life. However, learning to meditate costs money- which I don’t have.

Maybe I’ll just teach myself deep breathing exercises.

Just to be clear, I am quite content and happy and such. I just need to relax a little more.