there it is…

soak it all in Adam, it can only be too good to be true.

I kinda met someone. I broke down and decided to try that stupid e harmony. i was so embarresed to answer some of the questions they ask you. I knew it was asking for a reason so i answered them truthfully. Two weeks went by and i actually started to talk to someone. She has been very nice and kind to talk to. There is none of that frustration of trying to impress her. Personally she is way outta my league. She is beautiful, and my god i feel so ugly next to her.
We went on a date the other night, and she ended up coming to my apartment. She loves my cat, and she told me my apartment was kinda ugly lol. She said it was "fixable" though. I agree my couch is horrible, and i agree my bed room furniture is outdated.  Single guy, with no kids, and a cat…. i don’t really have anyone to impress you know? Needless to say i had a great time. There was no kissing, or holding hands. It was just hanging out and getting to know each other. I guess we will see what happens with that.

My birthday keeps getting closer and closer.. I am so scared. What if i find some sort of happiness and then it is all gone… What if i screw things up? I’m good at that. We will just have to see i guess.