Shut myself off.

I thought i would shut myself off from the so called world of friends i have. Set myself a sail and see what happens. i’ve had a break down.. worst then ever. attempted suicide. wound up in the hospital. try explaining that to your boss.

i have deleted my facebook. i want nothing to do with the so called 200 "friends" that hardly even know me.
I have deleted my Myspace. This is even worse then facebook.

I’m just in general lost. i have no where else to turn. i hate this "life" all these people keep telling me i am blessed to have. if i am so damn blessed why is everything so damn hard.

i wish she was here… i really do. so i could tell her how sorry i am for causing all this trouble in her life. i tried to make it all go away. i really did.

my life has been haunted for almost 4 years now… haunted by everyone else’s happiness. it’s nothing personal… i just wish i could have an ounce of happiness myself.

EstuansInterius

August 31, 2011

I understand how you feel. I also deleted my facebook, haven’t had a myspace in years. It was more because I’m simply tired of people most of the time. I’m tired of seeing people complain over trivial issues.

Gurly239

I was going to message you on facebook just yesterday I think… then I didn’t. I figured you were happy without me as a friend… I’m sorry things have been rough. I wish I could help. I don’t know how.

I deleted my facebook as well. Decided to focus on quality over quantity, and I feel a lot better for it. I’m actually calling and emailing and hanging out with individuals instead of just checking their status when I’m bored. It’s nice. This is kind of random but you ever had a penpal? It’s nice having something tangible to look forward to, in the mail. Seeing someone’s handwriting when you haven’t met them can be sort of a trip. I hope you’re tending towards simplicity and start feeling like things will be alright soon.

SilverNightfall

September 21, 2011

I’ve been where you are at, I’ve tried it several times and failed. I deactivated my FB today too actually, because the only friend I have on there really is my fiance William. Life hurts, I’ve come to realize though that u have to make the best of what you’re given, and that is a lot harder to say than do. *Hugs* If u ever need someone to talk to, I’m here. And I hope things get better for you.

September 26, 2011

Wow those r some very strong beliefs abt that site! It’s true tho, I actually reactivated mine..can’t seem to stay away from it lol, but I can say that I am very picky abt who my friends r and everything is private if ur not a friend. Anyway, for the longest time now I’ve shut myself off from the world too..it’s the easiest thing to do when u’ve been hurt time and time again. But, it doesn’t..

help anything. It def doesn’t make us feel better..I mean for me,for a time it did..but now I’m more miserable than ever. I don’t want to lose out on something good because I gave up. Its inevitable that life is going to throw **** at us, but it can also have moments of joy too. So if u have a moment of joy(and I really hope u do)..ponder on that moment and cherish it. It helps get u thru the ****