a place where no one knows my name

I broke my arm at work and haven’t been to work in nearly 2 1/2 weeks. I’m finacially broke with bills coming in. I can’t work until i get the okay from my doctor, and trying to find a second job that would just help with the soon to be medical bills coming in. Trying to stay positive through all of this, yet I find myself going insane sitting around in this apartment.

I try to keep a strong will about things, but I keep finding myself complaining about not being able to work. Then the problems with Robyn seem to keep appearing. I know why they are, i just can’t seem to stop them from coming. I keep thinking there is a problem, when there isn’t one, which then in turn causes a problem. All these problems stem from my issues with Amanda. Robyn is an amazing girl, and I really should feel blessed to be with her, however I keep thinking about Amanda. I keep thinking about her, and it makes me wonder if she even thinks about me.

more and more I find myself wanting to get outta this town. Leave everything behind. Start new in a big place where no one knows my name. It’s almost too good to be a dream lol.

I miss writing, but lord knows I’ve had all the time in the world to type, but I just haven’t known what to say lately because I honestly don’t know what I want. Happiness… Love… I guess those are the things I want.