07/09/2013

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It seems like all I ever do is talk about how I need to get on here more and more. It’s just hard because I don’t really wanna have these emotions. I feel like I am being selfish by getting on here and bitching about everything and anything under the sun. I’m sitting here at work, and it’s already started off as a Horrible day. I got here about 10 minutes late like I usually am because it’s sunday and there really isn’t a point to being there as early as they want me to be. I just had a customer yell at me and ask me if I thought he was stupid because he asked if cheese was considered an Item. I’m tired of people being negative around me… I think I’ve figured out why I am so negative on things, and why I let things get to me so easily. I’m influenced by those around me for some reason. I let my emotions take over because I feel that I need to be with these people because they are the ones who surround me. All I do is complain about them… about the negative people. I need to change my scenery I think. Maybe a move, or a job change. Something to maybe step outta the same routine I am in every single day.

Wow it’s been a long time since I have been on here. I feel like a lot has changed in my life since I have wrote on here.
Tried to have closure with Amanda, and that didn’t work out quite the way I planned it. Started talking to her and she started telling me about sex with the new boyfriend, and yeah I just couldn’t really stand the thought of that so we kinda fought again. whatever… I’ll probably never be "over" her for good ever… and you know what? I’m okay with that. I’m trying