04/30/2012

I’m writing this on may 1st but that is because I didn’t really have much of a chance yesterday to type.

Monday was going to be a blah day for me really. I really wasn’t planning on much of anything to happen. I started my day off at around 11am, which I am REALLY hating that. I really wish I could wake up early so that I could get ready for when school starts. I woke up sore because I had jogged 7.5 miles the night before so i guess the sleep was a good thing anyway. I got myself around, and I had something to eat. Grabbed a FRS out of the fridge and made my way to levels. I have made the decision that no matter what happens this week, That I am going to be at 90 lbs lost. I got to levels, and I went really hard on the AMT. I did about 600 calories on that, then I went to the tredmill and decided I was going to try the fitness test. basically you have to put your weight, height, and age in. It calculates what your heart rate should be to consider yourself fit. It was based on a 0-100 scale. It starts off at a 0 incline and gradually goes to the highest. I started off just working on my heart rate, making sure the machine wouldn’t shut off if it got too high for too long. I MADE IT!!!! it only got up to 148, and the limit was 150 for 1 minute. after I was done it gives you your results. Mine was a 80/100 So I was suuuuper happy about that. Then Bruce got there and had me do another treadmill workout. It was something that moved up and down, and kept you at different paces. All and all I ended up burning about 1500 calories total that day at levels! I LOVE working out anymore. I always feel so acomplished.

Amanda and I kind of broke some new ground… we talk, and we really haven’t argued in a few days. it has been nice just to talk about anything and everything. I feel like maybe she could understand how much I have been hurting over this whole situation. I’m not being emotional, I’m not trying to be clingy. I’m just talking to her when I think that she might want to talk. We actually flirt here and there, and maybe we might take it a little further then we should. It is just a wonderful thing that she would even be talking to me right now. I miss her… I miss everything about her. I just hope I am not continuing my heartache by doing this.