04/08/2012

Alright… I know this shouldn’t bother me… but it has been. I’ll text Amanda, and she won’t respond. This is something that I know I shouldn’t get as upset as I do. She is NOT my girlfriend, and she is in no way obligated to text me. I don’t understand how she can go from talking to me one day, to hating my guts over nothing the next. If i didn’t know better I would say there is someone else… AGAIN. You know that any ass hole who talks to her is only using her for one thing, and that kills me. When I would give her the world, and make her so damn happy. I wonder how things would even be if i was down to my goal weight. I’m in no way skinny now, but i am certainly looking better. It just kills me.

It’s Easter, and I have to work in an hour. The night will be filled with hillbillies who don’t believe in God, and Mexicans who don’t know how to speak English. Not to mention I am kind of in a bad mood about amanda… Sounds like the perfect setting for a terrible night. WONDERFUL.

I wish there was something or someone to take my mind off of all this. I just want my Amanda back.